[ButterflyMind22]

So i thought along with my introduction i would introduce the Alters, and my concern as to if they are real or not.

Host- Me i suppose, i do not identify with my given name, so i never have responded well to being called it. I usually respond only to my gaming names.

I lack big spaces of time in my life, and teenage years. My childhood is fragmented. I have low self worth and very depressed/unmotivated.

Protector 1- Autumn.
She is the first protector, but not the first alter. Very perfectionist, and often deals with Authority figures as i do not handle the stress and anxiety of social situations well. I fear deeply being labeled incompetent, so Autumn acts sometimes as the core personality to pass as Normal.

Protector 2- Angel

Second protector, not second alter. Male, Gay teen. Emo style look, lazy, agressive when provoked. Defends the system from emotional pain from bad memories. has memories of abuse in some parts of my life. Caused G.I.D diagnosis in me at 17.

Child Alters - Now Twins- Dashie and Shadow (female and Male)
Dashie and Shadow are both 5 years of age, have small memories of the abuse as a child . Often leave messes and are full of energy and love. i have big collections of stuffed animals and child like clothing adult size to wear when she or he is around and out.

Abuser Alters- Lenne and Seven
They are both reliving the trauma often. Often triggered when i or the child alters is under confrontation, they know they cannot fight the people arguing with me, so they hurt me instead to get the anger out. Often do not stay long enough to pose any real issues.

ISH- Skye

A more spiritual, loving, vegan 60's woman who looks like me, often gives me advice or counsels me through tough subjects.

So thats all i have so far.... I guess that is a good thing heh

[lowinmood]

all these parts are you, there is a wounded self and a survivor self, a child self and an adult self, a self that needs to be loved, listened to, understood and to feel safe, and there is a part of you that can love, will listen and understand and does feel safe. So Autim and Skye are both you, and will help heal the wounded selfs.

Hi Butterfly....glad to meet all of you, welcome to PC!

My biggest consolation in confidence of the condition would be the fact that here I am at home posting in this forum! Normal people normally don't feel compelled to be posting here, normally.

Some pop in questioning themselves with some concern, but mostly because they do have similar symptoms like hearing voices through other forms of MI, that is to be expected.

You do seem to have very well detailed characteristics of others that you seem to sound confident about, so I would dare to lean to the real side.

How you describe your earlier years sounds very similar to the way I describe mine, starting wth yesterday. :P

We tend to be hostless. We can only see who dominates the time out by looking to the past from the future. We switch to suit the moment as needed.

Hope to hear more of you and your system.