[WinterSoul]

Hi! So we're wondering if we're a median system? It feel like we've kinda split into 3 people... We all have our own names and personalities and stuff, but we're all fully aware of each other. We all switch out fronting depending on the situation. One of us doesn't like to talk, one will talk when they have to and the other loves to talk. Like, at school we all have certain classes that we'll front as. At home it's mostly just one of us who fronts all the time. Are we just making this up? This just happened really recently and... we just don't know? Are we faking it subconsciously??
Thank you!
-Shale

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by WinterSoul

Hi! So we're wondering if we're a median system? It feel like we've kinda split into 3 people... We all have our own names and personalities and stuff, but we're all fully aware of each other. We all switch out fronting depending on the situation. One of us doesn't like to talk, one will talk when they have to and the other loves to talk. Like, at school we all have certain classes that we'll front as. At home it's mostly just one of us who fronts all the time. Are we just making this up? This just happened really recently and... we just don't know? Are we faking it subconsciously??
Thank you!
-Shale

here in america we dont have definitions like median, facet, poly, poly fragmented systems any more, this was changed in may 2013. short version these were psychological terms treatment providers used to better understand their clients, but over time these terms ended up backfiring to where alters and hosts were fighting against each other over things like being called a fragment vs a real alter, instead of being a positive term for treatment providers they turned into slag derogatives\negatives. therefore here in america these labeling\placing alters in categories \sets groupings is no longer used. I know in other countries they may still be labeling,separating , grouping a persons internal system this way but here in america it no longer matters, and is no longer a consideration.

now treatment in america now focuses on stabilization and promoting working together, communication rather than focusing on things like... this alters not a full \real alter or that ones belongs in this grouping so they are not important right now.

all alters /all internal systems are now treated as equals in the mental health community here in america.

that said i do know that there are websites on the internet and media out there that still use these terms. short version what gets posted on the internet is pretty permanent, if the website or poster deletes something theres always a cached version available if that website allowed google or other search engines to have access to the material at any point. and as long as theres a paper book out there published before 2013 its going to include the outdated material.

but if you really want to diagnose and place labels upon you and your internal system the best place to go is to your own treatment providers. they will let you know whats what with in you and your own system. we are not allowed to tell someone that their system is or isnt something, only your own treatment providers can do that based on the diagnostics and definitions used when they diagnosed you.

[amandalouise]

I just noticed something in your posts you have been diagnosed with PTSD and depression and anxiety. here may be why when they diagnosed you with those things you did not get a DID diagnosis....

from your post above....
at school we all have certain classes that we'll front as. At home it's mostly just one of us who fronts all the time.

Dissociative type alters affect all aspects of a persons life, they dont only come out at school.

short version dissociation is a response to negative and positive triggers. a trigger is anything that makes a person feel dissociated (numb, spaced out, disconnected) on a normal level this happens many times a day to human beings... they feel extremely happy and start feeling numb, spaced out, they feel sad or have been crying they srart feeling numb and spaced out, they are driving their car and the repetative motion makes them feel spaced out and numb... just the way the brain works. it doesnt matter whether the person is as school at home at work, socializing with friends... it just happens.

it becomes one of the mental disorders when it meets special guidelines. the guidelines for america are in my link at the bottom of my post.

my point is that since you say this doesnt affect you at home only at school that pretty much disqualifies it as being the disorder level of dissociation called DID. heres why most people get triggered at home as well as at school, example what happens when your parents grounded you or yelled at you. thats called being triggered. for people with DID that would have caused an alter to take control at home, not stay one fronting at home most of the time.

im not trying to discourage you or diagnose you, just making an observation as to why when you were diagnosed with PTSD \depression\anxiety they didnt also diagnose you with one of the two dissociative disorders that include dissociative type alters.

you can find out for sure whats going on by contacting your treatment providers, they can explain to you why you were not diagnosed with DID or OSDD when they diagnosed you, you can also ask them for an updated evaluation to see whether what you are going through is DID or OSDD.

Originally Posted by WinterSoul

Hi! So we're wondering if we're a median system? It feel like we've kinda split into 3 people... We all have our own names and personalities and stuff, but we're all fully aware of each other. We all switch out fronting depending on the situation. One of us doesn't like to talk, one will talk when they have to and the other loves to talk. Like, at school we all have certain classes that we'll front as. At home it's mostly just one of us who fronts all the time. Are we just making this up? This just happened really recently and... we just don't know? Are we faking it subconsciously??
Thank you!
-Shale

Hi shale, this can be so confusing. Are we faking it? Being co-conscience...being aware of others ...can be so fakey feeling.

But I ask myself, what is there to gain from this? Am I putting a micro ounce of energy into the manifestation of the alleged condition? Is it something that I've known forever but never addressed it? Is it a new thing? Is it having an impact on your life, both negative and/or positive?

Dissociative identities happen from early childhood and is a lifelong experience, but you mention it "happened really recently...". Does this mean that it just started?

Anyhow, your best bet would be to talk to a T because it takes quite the recipe to cause DID. Feel free to stay and ask questions if you like. I wish you the best!

[WinterSoul]

@amandalouise
Oh, we're sorry! We didn't mean to use any terms that may be considered offensive or incorrect! We've only seen those terms being used when we looked around. Thank you for telling us!
Thank you for your input! We may just have to contact our health provider. Thank you!

@AlwaysChanging2
What we mean when we say it happened really recently is that the former person was under a ton of stress (way more than usual) and was having a ton of panic attacks. A lot of stuff was going on and she just seemed to kinda... shatter after that, if it makes sense? It's almost like we were once person but everything was just to much and it shattered us into 3 people it seems like. We're just confused to if we're just making this up because we're so stressed out or if this is for real? Like, is this just something that we're imagining to help us cope?
Thank you for your input!

Originally Posted by WinterSoul

@amandalouise
Oh, we're sorry! We didn't mean to use any terms that may be considered offensive or incorrect! We've only seen those terms being used when we looked around. Thank you for telling us!
Thank you for your input! We may just have to contact our health provider. Thank you!

@AlwaysChanging2
What we mean when we say it happened really recently is that the former person was under a ton of stress (way more than usual) and was having a ton of panic attacks. A lot of stuff was going on and she just seemed to kinda... shatter after that, if it makes sense? It's almost like we were once person but everything was just to much and it shattered us into 3 people it seems like. We're just confused to if we're just making this up because we're so stressed out or if this is for real? Like, is this just something that we're imagining to help us cope?
Thank you for your input!

Dissociative disorders are generally trauma based from early childhood. Maybe you wasn't aware of any "others" until trying to cope with your stress? Idk. Others just don't "happen", they had to be there most of your life.

You also are speaking as one of the others away from the other, can this be true, too? Try keeping a journal to let others write in and see what everyone says if they want. It's worth a see.