[TrailRunner14]

Thank you for whoever has served or has lost someone dear to them, serving for freedom for our country. I thank you!!

Today has been really "off" for me. There have been so many thoughts and images in my mind.

My dad died 5 years ago. He was a sergeant in the Korean war. While he was there he contracted hemorrhagic fever (ebola) and technically died. They pronounced him dead. My mom has told me the story. He "died" and told an angel he saw that he didn't want to die. He wanted to go home and have a family. He wanted to have a life with his family.

He made it home. My mom, medically, wasn't supposed to be able to have children. The doctor laughed at her when she went to his office and told him that she was pregnant.

Well... Here I am. In my brokenness.. an answer to a prayer.

My brother came 5 years later. The golden child, as compared to me, the over compliant - willful - defiant one.

Not really sure where I was trying to go with this. I just really wanted someone to hear it. I tried to talk to my h about it.... He's not really about listening to what's going on. We filled up the bird feeders instead.

Listening to this as I post this. It gives me comfort.

Thank you for hearing me!!