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I had a therapist that I thought I could trust. I had seen her before and I decided to go back to her because she deals with sexual abuse victims. Well, she told me that she was sure that I had DID instead of BPD. I thought I would just go along with it just to make her happy. We never worked on what I went back to her for. It was always the “insiders” that she wanted to talk about and deal with. My psych doctor told me that I may have it but that he is a practical doctor and only diagnosis people with things that can be proven by science. Well then he said that he DOES believe that I have dissociative episodes and voices. He also said that I have borderline personality disorder. WHICH I have had since I was 14 years old and I am now 31. I read all the info packets and I am sure most of the books that talk about it and most of them said that a teenager SHOULD not be diagnosed with until they are over 18. That teens and even young adults show signs of it. My old therapist told me that she thinks that BPD is just a catch all and that if they are not sure what you have going on with you that is what they diagnosis you with. A little more info for you is that I was taken away from my Mom and her now ex-husband when I was 12 years old. I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 11 and was put on pills but have been in therapy since I was 7. I live in an adult foster care right now but will be moving out on my own very soon.
I feel that I have nobody in my corner since I quit seeing my old therapist. She would stick up for and so would my last ARHMS worker. Now I am getting a new ARHMS worker and I have one advocate through a sexual assault place and another one through DHS. I have all of these people but I feel like I am always getting into trouble with one or another. Okay I better end this since it is almost two pages…Anyways can anyone relate to me about being misdiagnosed or having conflicting caregivers? Thanks, LA-ML

Luv hon. And I though being called bipolar was a m.i. Bucket.

You know, I've got Others if not just me that are co-morbid with other personality issues. So its not like a written in stone kind of pattern.

But I'd thought I'd say "hey, hang in there sweety" even though I walk a different type of life.

Different diagnoses? Sure. Pdoc says I have DID but there are no meds for that,so I am on antidepressants and anti anxiety meds and sleep meds. He says I have treatment resistant depression and anxiety.
The psychologist that did a bunch of testing on my says that I have DID, MDD, and personality disorder with schizoid, dependent and avoidant traits.
t1 goes along with pdoc and psychologist.
t2 says BPD and PTSD and DID
t3 says DID and dependent personality disorder.
Me? I think I have DID. Treatment resistant depression. Personality disorders.

i was diagnosed first with depression at 13/14 then possible borderline at 16 which then was for sure a diagnosis at 18. at 21, i started seeing a psychiatrist who picked up from the start the dissociative aspect of things that others didn't..unless i didn't say much to the other professionals..i am not entirely sure. but now in my 30s, i also have a diagnosis of DID and am going away from the borderline diagnosis. it took me this long to say more about things which was why it took so long for more of a diagnosis or add on.

to me, as much as a diagnosis is helpful, it also depends on how you are being helped, so looking at the current problematic issues/symptoms and seeing what might be able to help with what...though it does take a lot of adjusting things you try and maybe each time a symptom comes up too because unless you have patterns, it might not be that easy.

there were case managers and psychiatrists i saw that i did not agree with or had personality conflicts with. i realized they thought it was because of me and my mental health issues...but to me, it was more because i felt they were really cold towards to me and not hearing what i was trying to say. i would do what they asked (for the most part). but i was working with my psychiatrist who never pushed meds on me, yet the case managers mostly pushed meds at me like it was a solution. so because i was not on a consistent medication, they treated me like i was non compliant..yet i tried all the group therapies recommended..and when i used up all the resources i had and was not improving, i got upset and frustrated with them because they told me i just wasn't trying hard enough.

my psychiatrist also tried explaining to them certain limitations i had, yet they were pushing me to do other things. the dynamics of it were kind of strange. they just were not on the same page at all.

i eventually stopped seeing them all because i was able to get help for something outside of my area which seemed to help lessen a lot of other issues for me. it was strange how things just came together in my head how they did. but i realized they had limitations and i used all i could from them, so i had to make the choice to stop seeing them. they were through the mental health clinic whereas my psychiatrist was not, so i figured that maybe was better to see someone privately who wasn't bound by the rules they were at the clinic.

i used to see several people at once for different things. it was too difficult because they each had their own area of what they worked on (trauma, eating disorder, general things, medication management, etc.). i don't think they really talked to each other, so it was like five different pieces i was working on at once and getting nowhere because of it.

hopefully you'll find something that works for you.

Hi LA-ML
Yup. Similar timelines, similar dxs, LOTS OF CONTRADICTIONS DOUBTS AND CONFUSION ..ur singing my song sistah! IT SUX...I feel ya. Sick of it all, just want some peace, quiet and clarity!! Why is that so much to askfor??? Idk.