We each try to not trigger an Other out. I do it. They do it. I'm sitting here fighting to stay me, staying focused on my present. I can tell that I'm on the verge of a switch, but trying to stay grounded. I do it, they do it.

So who is who?

I actually dread coming home because that is a trigger, but I have to to clean up. I can feel them wanting out, or is that gas? It's like an elation feeling of suspense and anxiety, and I have to micro manage my movements or they will slip in like into a glove without warning. Even my posture can cause a switch. This is so hard.

I try to shut their voices out...when one's voice gets loud in head they can take over. Whoever's voice that controls the head controls the body controls the life.

When we weren't aware...no biggy. Now in the know, it's a battlefield. I can feel them trying to move the fingers and toes. That's another gateway in....physical movement.

Just an example of what I get to deal with (them too to to be fair).

How is it for you? Are you able to fight back and stay you?

[Luce]

There are times that I can, and times that I can't. At home we are a switchy free for all at the moment. In times of less stress I can maintain control much more effectively. For instance yesterday I went to make myself a coffee, a few minutes later found myself sitting down with alcohol; took it back and tried to finish making the coffee I had started, then found myself with the alcohol again. Didn't take the alcohol back, but made my coffee and sat down with the coffee and the alcohol.
Someone drank the alcohol, and I was left with cold coffee.

Things like that. All day long.
Like you, nothing really gets done.

We will be back at work on Monday and things will be more consistent then.
At least they will be during the day.