I posted this elsewhere courtesy of Bobbie (and probably said the samething on here a thousand times):

I feel much more crazy then anything else. It's like my conscious stays present but personality changes....I'm one then I'm another....completely separate entity with it's own likes and dislikes. I know because I can see it and understand how we are constructed...always trying to define and redefine the true nature of our existence.

It's like we have the same eyes....but everything behind it switches out....like the lights never go out. Memories also stay with the one that experienced them which is like a new page every moment in a different book.

Being co-conscious keeps the conscious lit up...like the body is an empty shell and the Others are the filling taking turns being present.

There is always a level of depersonalization in effect.

I can feel like I'm dictating and someone else is writing or talking...like I live through them. I can feel my body move and do things not in my control. I'm like an ever present mind but not in any real control....just existing through the lives of Others.

I'm always trying to figure this out and get to speak/think it unless an Other occupies our mind and then I'm just a watcher....helpless....spectator....an inactive participant...which then makes me an Other....

[bearguardian]

Not sure what to say to this but I can partly relate.

My selves are more connected so I dont see them as a problem. (we often have a meeting debate)

And as Im getting older I less and less believe in free will. Of course not as an excuse to act like an idiot. I just feel there is something beyond me doing everything I do.

[bearguardian]

I just added a caution signature for my selves and readers.

This is actually the most accurate dscription of how our system functions that I've read yet. Kudos OP.

I hate reading things that an Other wrote....its so icky feeling.

[elevatedsoul]

i feel like that too, but the fog is dense

i have blacked out only when that angry monster wants to charge an opponent; which im glad is not very often because i would like probably totally be dead or locked up in prison

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

i feel like that too, but the fog is dense

i have blacked out only when that angry monster wants to charge an opponent; which im glad is not very often because i would like probably totally be dead or locked up in prison

Me too. Our worst has fantasies of (disgusting)

Possible trigger:

dismembering....