[Nickiskip]

My life didn't stay until I was 8. I could remember nothing before that age. This has been happening to me recently. It's new. Her name is Alice she doesn't talk she just thinks a thought. I've never heard her voice anything out loud she's selectively mute maybe. My boyfriend is her trigger. Not always but the three times she's been out it's been around him or the thought of him coming home once brought her out. I don't know how old Alice is I just know that she can read. My boyfriend is a really good understanding patient guy. It was during a switch tonight that I remembered a small detail of before 8. Onyx the logical one was trying to get Alice to calm down and go into her bubble she told her to color and advice then said she liked to finger paint instantly we flashed to LeLe. He used to finger paint with us. I always thought we were the same age. It wasn't until I got older that I realized he wasn't. But with that flashback Alice started to freak out. So I tried to remember when that was I'm guessing I had just turned 7 because she feels more six than 7. Could he really have done something to me or is this made up in my head. I've been testing the thought of different men in my life growing up but he's the only one I've forgotten about the only one who's face I can't see. Only small flashes here and there. I'm so scared.