Do you all experience it?

I can sit here, look at the window, then waves will hit me...the light seems to change tone and a calm peace envelopes me.

I think sunlight plays a big part of it because there is always sunlight...the bright shadow casting type.

I get flashbacks to the pleasenter of times or moments in life as seen through younger eyes on sunny days.

I can get lost in this feeling. Growing up, the sun ball has always been my friend, bright and warm, flowers and dirt and laughter.....

A yearning for the simpler times. These are the only times I see some of the missing memories of good childhood times.

I miss them.

I also find that DP plays a part in it, too.

[bearguardian]

Yep, though the good times were but a few.

[MtnTime2896]

Yeah, I get those. It's not often but it happens every now and then.

One of those moments involve looking up at the night sky when a very thin layer of clouds are covering the moon so you can still see it and a rainbow ring surrounding it due to the cloud's moisture. A couple stars, closest to the moon shine through, as well. When I was little, I'd sometimes sneak out of the house after everything went down that evening, and I'd go with one or two of my siblings (when I got older it was my neighbor/friend) and we'd lay out in the field and star gaze. That one image though, happened on a night I'd spent with my friends and away from the house. A night that made me feel like I could accomplish anything. The night's sky has always been there to remind me I'm safe and I will be better someday.

I saw that same image tonight. Safe to say I needed to see it.

[Michael W. Harris]

I have what AA describes as a wet brain from ten years of seriously abusing alcohol. I do not get waves of nostalgia. But Deja Vu was a constant feeling for most of my life.

I believe that this is from the dissociative disorder. Always feeling like you are doing the same things over and over.

I have constant feelings of regrets. For most of my life I did not understand how socially dysfunctional I was. I did not know I was mentally ill. I did not know that my communication skills were horrible. I did not know that my logic was very badly flawed. I never had any in-depth conversations with adults, at all, during my childhood, adolescence and even as an adult. I had casual conversations with my teachers, my sergeants, professors and employers. This all relates to my Borderline Personality Disorder but it is also why I have not gotten help for my Dissociative Disorder.

I love nature. In Florida I went to State lands and hiked regularly. I wish I could have the happy memories that you describe. I wish I had loved ones and intimates.

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Yeah, I get those. It's not often but it happens every now and then.

One of those moments involve looking up at the night sky when a very thin layer of clouds are covering the moon so you can still see it and a rainbow ring surrounding it due to the cloud's moisture. A couple stars, closest to the moon shine through, as well. When I was little, I'd sometimes sneak out of the house after everything went down that evening, and I'd go with one or two of my siblings (when I got older it was my neighbor/friend) and we'd lay out in the field and star gaze. That one image though, happened on a night I'd spent with my friends and away from the house. A night that made me feel like I could accomplish anything. The night's sky has always been there to remind me I'm safe and I will be better someday.

I saw that same image tonight. Safe to say I needed to see it.

Heres that nostalgia feeling again triggered....on a bright sunny day when I was in 3rd grade (?)...on a schoolyard picnic with classmates....I looked up at the sun and saw a crisp rainbow ring around the sun...I pointed and said look!!!

Everyone looked (30 of us wee ones)....then the entire school emptied on all sides of elementary school to see the coolest thing ever....

Then I felt embarrassed.

Originally Posted by Michael W. Harris

I have what AA describes as a wet brain from ten years of seriously abusing alcohol. I do not get waves of nostalgia. But Deja Vu was a constant feeling for most of my life.

I believe that this is from the dissociative disorder. Always feeling like you are doing the same things over and over.

I have constant feelings of regrets. For most of my life I did not understand how socially dysfunctional I was. I did not know I was mentally ill. I did not know that my communication skills were horrible. I did not know that my logic was very badly flawed. I never had any in-depth conversations with adults, at all, during my childhood, adolescence and even as an adult. I had casual conversations with my teachers, my sergeants, professors and employers. This all relates to my Borderline Personality Disorder but it is also why I have not gotten help for my Dissociative Disorder.

I love nature. In Florida I went to State lands and hiked regularly. I wish I could have the happy memories that you describe. I wish I had loved ones and intimates.

What is a wet brain? I often wondered.

I'm 49 (?) and started drinking at 16.....heavily. I've been sober for only 3 years since then excluding now because we are all alcoholics....luv this....it only takes one of us to get us drunk...

[Michael W. Harris]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

What is a wet brain? I often wondered.

I'm 49 (?) and started drinking at 16.....heavily. I've been sober for only 3 years since then excluding now because we are all alcoholics....luv this....it only takes one of us to get us drunk...

When I was a young man, beer helped relax me and keep me from switching in social situations. Marijuana did the opposite.

After 2001 when my normal personality had a total mental breakdown and I began to seriously binge drink I began switching during the binge. Weird things would happen like I would wet my pants and not realize that I had done it. I would sleep walk after I went to sleep and do insane things. Actually I do not know if I was sleep walking or had just switched into a different personality.

A wet brain is when the alcohol abuse has gotten to the point where it is seriously affecting memory and cognitive ability.