tough week, very depressed and lots of blackouts (so depressed I didn't come here)

wednesday was halloween, not a bad night I suppose, though a lot of my plans (all of them?), fell through one way or another

still reading the sisterhood, reading it slowly... not so much enjoying it, but when it's finished I will go on to something better I am sure

Body is sore. The workers always want to go to work. (Easier to generalize then be specific)

seemed to lose a lot of time this afternoon- not sure how much but a lot

and now their are fireworks outside my window being loud and constant.

so triggery..

Nothing ever changes, so what is there to really say?

We type delete, type delete...Day in day out...

Definetly hate ourselves, everything posted is wrong, self critical, judged, disliked, why keep living?

[Parva]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Nothing ever changes, so what is there to really say?

We type delete, type delete...Day in day out...

Definetly hate ourselves, everything posted is wrong, self critical, judged, disliked, why keep living?

Thanks for writing this. Sometimes it feels like I'm the only one of the planet that can possibly feel this way. I wish I didn't, and I wish you didn't either.

deffenetly one of those days where you just think what's the point?

why am I here?

I honestly don't know why things are so bad half the time, I think half the time I'm just fed up of life and thinking... oh not again, and half the time
i just focus on all my regrets

like today.. not really much of a reason to be depressed,

but you know... today I sat in a chair and filled up on junkfood

go me. where's my medal. that sort of thing

barely functioned today.

what else can I say.. I really didn't get anything done apart from eat

[Fuzzybear]

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Gonna make Dd disappear forever by not talking about it.

Very tired waking up. I was fast asleep last night, and about 3 am as usual I heard parts talking about weight gain and eating 2 eggs everyday and that’s why... and was trying to figure out what else to eat for breakfast that wasn’t eggy....shut up already, I’m trying to sleep.

Also noticed that at 3:30 am a very loud truck starts up every morning and drives away.

[Parva]

I decided today that DD totally and completely sucks.

"We are getting aggravated."
"Yes, we are."

very depressed yesterday,

to depressed to even come on here

managed to shower and to use some of my new perfume though

feel a little better today but not much (but wanted to come on here, felt so bad for not doing it yesterday)

listening to christmas music

Had blow out with kid last night, the Others started griping about his 20 year old lazy butt and it exploded on him kicking him out.

This morning we’re bugged about it.

Found stolen purse on floor with I.d. in it.

So many mixed feelings.

so much spare time, all wasted.

I did nothing today

nothing..

We took the kid to breakfast with his friends and got things straight.

Trying to relax today.

Updated stupid phone and now can’t post to FB. We are so compulsed to drink every can of beer in the fridge.

Tired

my day has been quite boring, with the only exciting part (or semi excting part), watching muppet's christmas carol

I love that movie

still... just feel blah

not really sure why- just my life sucks I guess

once again circumstances have got in the way of things... today I was actually meant to go to town to see the switching on of the christmas lights

but it's not happening, and honestly, not sure much is.

apart from having a gross shower this morning, I'm just sat here listening to music- and that's how it will probably remain for the day

Friday, to work we go...last 2 weeks a memoryless blur (what’s new?): bonus- today is payday (surprise!) which felt like last week was. Rent and car payment: ka-ching....gone.

We looked in a full length mirror with a good look...we need help.