[RACEKA]

My T is not experiences in DID and has told me so. He does have superiors that are and he can consult with them. He gave me the option of transferring or staying with him. I choose to stay with him. I have not been diagnosed DID. I have been talking to him about this. I do have some symptoms. I do have severe trauma and I do dissociate. I tell my T every week the things I experience. I do have voices in my head, I do have memory problems, I do feel outside of myself, etc. I don't know about any switching.

Last week I told him I came home from shopping with some stuffed animals that I don't remember buying. I also found myself in younger style stores not knowing why I was there. He asked me if I wanted help with this and I said yes. He again asked me if I would see another therapist. I told him no. He said he's ok with this now, but it may come a time where it would be unethical for him to continue to see me because he is not experienced. He also said I need coping skills. I cut & do some purging.

The thought of another therapist is killing me. I don't know whether to talk to him about this or just to wait it out to see what happens. Doesn't all T's know coping skills? I would think that would be basic. He says he specializes in emotions and trauma.

I am working with a PDOC on this also.

I have names for the voices in my head. They rescued me when I was younger during the abuse. They don't take over my body.
They do influence my thoughts.

I would rather die than leave my T.

What do you all think about this?

[bipolar_bear]

Choices such as face you are so personal that I think you have to think it through for what is best for you. No matter what you choose there will be tradeoffs. Maybe you can discuss it with him and see what both of you come up with. I don't think there is a "right" or "wrong" decision but one that fits you the best. Good luck.

BB

yes,,,, it is a very personal decsion... one which I have faced... and you do put it on a scale and weigh it...and there are tradeoffs... it doesn't sound like he is rushing you.. so why not take time... and let it sort itself out a bit more...with time.. the scale should tip one way or the other for you... become clearer...a direction to go....

[smiley1984]

It is good your T is being open and honest with you.
Just another option if it is possible, you could start seeing the new T, but still see your old T at the same time - especially in the beginning because it will be hard for you to begin with a new T because change is very hard. After a few weeks you can decide what you want - seeing both or either one of them.
It is scary to start with a new unknown T and stop seeing the old T immediately - because what happens if you don't like the new T, or just don't click? Then you feel vulnerable with no one to help you, but if you keep a few appointments with the old T it might help with the anxiety of changing.

Good Luck in your decision making

[Fuzzybear]

I agree with freewill.

[RACEKA]

Thanks to all of you.