I feel like I'm not in control...it's like this body is a shell being used by other parts. Say a thought comes in head, and before you know it, it is spoken- by another part? I always feel like I'm watching life as a bystander as this body lives a life.

Sometimes I see this body through the eyes of a female, child, machine, or male....walking, talking, thinking, or behaving accordingly.

I see my legs and they don't feel like a part of me. Even typing this is like an effort that isn't mine. I feel so withdrawn from the physical that the body feels numb.

Even this life feels unreal, like just a culmination of luck and being directed.

A constant state of disonnect....seeing things from the side favoring the left eye, like just looking out a window watching.

But as all this is happening....this is the norm as it has always been. I know that I'm not alone in here. I just long for sole control as inhabitant, the mental peace of singular quietness, and full control of body and life.

Just thoughts from a thought.

[Heal_connect]

I'm so sorry. This condition really sucks. I just feel numb and outside of the body/ always acting but your situation sounds like life is barely doable. I hope you get better. I hope we all do.