[Heal_connect]

I don't get satisfaction from a part time job or from watching television with my boyfriend. It's just not enough. 2 or 3 years ago, a medication triggered depersonalization disorder and i stayed stuck in it every moment until it slowly faded. i still get it several times a day but i'm used to it and it isn't constant so i don't mind. i want to write about what i've gone through. sharing information that will help others is something that seems extremely meaningful to me and the only thing i want to do with my life. however, i know i don't feel things the same way that everyone else does because too much has happened and i have gone too numb. i don't want to settle for any old job but i guess i have to feel before i can really help others. i'm stuck. can anyone relate? i'm also too much of a perfectionist to ever publish my writing sooo.... that's a main thing

[Michael W. Harris]

Half the time I am numb and half the time I am in a bad emotional thing. The mood swings wear you out.

[writingwithink]

Originally Posted by Heal_connect

I don't get satisfaction from a part time job or from watching television with my boyfriend. It's just not enough. 2 or 3 years ago, a medication triggered depersonalization disorder and i stayed stuck in it every moment until it slowly faded. i still get it several times a day but i'm used to it and it isn't constant so i don't mind. i want to write about what i've gone through. sharing information that will help others is something that seems extremely meaningful to me and the only thing i want to do with my life. however, i know i don't feel things the same way that everyone else does because too much has happened and i have gone too numb. i don't want to settle for any old job but i guess i have to feel before i can really help others. i'm stuck. can anyone relate? i'm also too much of a perfectionist to ever publish my writing sooo.... that's a main thing

Hello. Welcome. I'm wondering why you think it is necessary to feel before you can help other people.