[Cplus]

So seven months ago today I smoked weed I got from a dispensary and had a reality crushing high, the worst high and experience I've had in the 25 years I've been on this planet. I don't even want to describe it because I'm trying to wipe out the memory of that experience that's how bad it was.

Anyway, the first four months were hell on earth I kept questioning life and reality everything seemed like a dream I could barely function. I also had intense head pressure, loud ringing ears and horrible dizziness but I'm not sure if it's a coincidence that it happened at the same time.

Month 5 was okay but it seems like I was having more okay days than bad with a few good days thrown in.

Month 6&7 have been the best now it's weird because I'll wake up in the morning feeling almost normal but then going into the night I get worse or sometimes it's reverse I'll wake up bad in the morning but into the night I'll feel almost normal.

What I experience now is these weird feelings and thoughts. Before I wrote this I was talking to my mom and I was thinking 'this is my mom, this is reality, I'm a real person, this is actually happening' part of me got scared and I had this weird emotional feeling wash over me. I have this happen to me randomly through out the day. Yesterday I was on the bus and I saw this girl and randomly I thought 'she's a real person' then I looked around the bus and thought 'these are all real people in reality this is happening right now' it's so weird and scary. Now it doesn't happen all the time anymore like in the first few months but randomly it'll happen and last a few seconds.

So how long does weed induced DR/DP last for? I was living a normal and pretty damn good life before this happened. Now I can't drive, I avoid taking the bus and I've stopped working because I don't know how I'll react to the next time it happens and being far away from home when it does. I have not since this happened, and will not, smoke weed for the rest of my life because for the last 7 months I have pretty much stayed in my room all day. This has been the worst year of my life and right now I'm hoping I'll be back to 100% by January 1st so I can put this all behind me and move on with my life with the next new year.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Cplus

So seven months ago today I smoked weed I got from a dispensary and had a reality crushing high, the worst high and experience I've had in the 25 years I've been on this planet. I don't even want to describe it because I'm trying to wipe out the memory of that experience that's how bad it was.

Anyway, the first four months were hell on earth I kept questioning life and reality everything seemed like a dream I could barely function. I also had intense head pressure, loud ringing ears and horrible dizziness but I'm not sure if it's a coincidence that it happened at the same time.

Month 5 was okay but it seems like I was having more okay days than bad with a few good days thrown in.

Month 6&7 have been the best now it's weird because I'll wake up in the morning feeling almost normal but then going into the night I get worse or sometimes it's reverse I'll wake up bad in the morning but into the night I'll feel almost normal.

What I experience now is these weird feelings and thoughts. Before I wrote this I was talking to my mom and I was thinking 'this is my mom, this is reality, I'm a real person, this is actually happening' part of me got scared and I had this weird emotional feeling wash over me. I have this happen to me randomly through out the day. Yesterday I was on the bus and I saw this girl and randomly I thought 'she's a real person' then I looked around the bus and thought 'these are all real people in reality this is happening right now' it's so weird and scary. Now it doesn't happen all the time anymore like in the first few months but randomly it'll happen and last a few seconds.

So how long does weed induced DR/DP last for? I was living a normal and pretty damn good life before this happened. Now I can't drive, I avoid taking the bus and I've stopped working because I don't know how I'll react to the next time it happens and being far away from home when it does. I have not since this happened, and will not, smoke weed for the rest of my life because for the last 7 months I have pretty much stayed in my room all day. This has been the worst year of my life and right now I'm hoping I'll be back to 100% by January 1st so I can put this all behind me and move on with my life with the next new year.

how long it lasts is different for everyone. with me it didnt last very long at all, a few hours to maybe a day and a half. I was only in the room with someone who was using it. (second hand smoke).

your own doctors would be the ones to ask how long its going to last in you.

[Solnutty]

Wow that is a pretty awful reaction and I’m so sorry you’re having to go through all this. I used to be a major pothead and I had some pretty bad experiences, one where I went blind, but none like that, or for that long. Drug induced derealization is really in a category of its own because of the unique factors involved, so it’s extremely difficult, and I’d say even irresponsible, to lend you advice about something I know so little about. I’ve experienced derealization and dissociative symptoms since childhood, but my condition is caused by an abuse history and is more in line with PTSD. I have no idea what might be triggering your continued episodes. If you were continuing to use marijuana I’d have to suggest quitting, since that seems to be what started it, but obviously since you quit that can’t be it. You may need quality help with this. If you use other substances, including alcohol, or if you are on medication, those may be contributing. My best suggestion is to get the advice of a health professional, because anything anyone else can suggest to you is really just guessing, and I don’t want you to be without help. Obviously this is disrupting your life and needs addressing as soon as possible. Would you be willing to seek the advice of a physician?

[Cplus]

Originally Posted by Solnutty

Wow that is a pretty awful reaction and I’m so sorry you’re having to go through all this. I used to be a major pothead and I had some pretty bad experiences, one where I went blind, but none like that, or for that long. Drug induced derealization is really in a category of its own because of the unique factors involved, so it’s extremely difficult, and I’d say even irresponsible, to lend you advice about something I know so little about. I’ve experienced derealization and dissociative symptoms since childhood, but my condition is caused by an abuse history and is more in line with PTSD. I have no idea what might be triggering your continued episodes. If you were continuing to use marijuana I’d have to suggest quitting, since that seems to be what started it, but obviously since you quit that can’t be it. You may need quality help with this. If you use other substances, including alcohol, or if you are on medication, those may be contributing. My best suggestion is to get the advice of a health professional, because anything anyone else can suggest to you is really just guessing, and I don’t want you to be without help. Obviously this is disrupting your life and needs addressing as soon as possible. Would you be willing to seek the advice of a physician?

I have been to a physician and he also got me to talk to a psychiatrist the only thing that came out of that was giving me a diagnosis and increasing my dose of risperidone from 3 mg to 4 mg. It has done nothing to improve it. And if anything it's just making it worse because I read online that antipsychotics makes derealization / depersonalization worse but I don't know if that's true. So I'm guessing I'm just going to have to wait it out.

[tom2123]

Originally Posted by Cplus

I have been to a physician and he also got me to talk to a psychiatrist the only thing that came out of that was giving me a diagnosis and increasing my dose of risperidone from 3 mg to 4 mg. It has done nothing to improve it. And if anything it's just making it worse because I read online that antipsychotics makes derealization / depersonalization worse but I don't know if that's true. So I'm guessing I'm just going to have to wait it out.

I’m not a doctor but I would suggest that you be very careful taking antipsychotics, especially if you aren’t actually experiencing any psychotic symptoms. What you describe sounds to only be dp/dr/dissociation, which by themselves are not related to psychosis. Many doctors misdiagnose those with dp/dr so just be aware. Antipsychotics often do more harm than good.