[Kiya]

Nothing makes sense. Not even these letters that make words. I think I didn’t take meds today? It’s holiday and no therapy for two weeks. My 6 yr old self came out and climbed the cabinets and on the fridge. Then took pictures and sent them to our next therapist after ours died. We terminated two years ago.
It’s been a long boring day with no appointments. I am lost and sad. The old t wrote back. We didn’t end well. It’s sad she’ll write some alters but not others. We’ve only written 4 times. Maybe. Only now two responses.
But there’s no one to call but crisis lines. It’s already past midnight and I don’t want to wake anyone- even if they would answer.
I miss my people. What if I forget them?

[IttyBit]

You have people here to talk to. Sometimes, that can be a big help.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Kiya

Nothing makes sense. Not even these letters that make words. I think I didn’t take meds today? It’s holiday and no therapy for two weeks. My 6 yr old self came out and climbed the cabinets and on the fridge. Then took pictures and sent them to our next therapist after ours died. We terminated two years ago.
It’s been a long boring day with no appointments. I am lost and sad. The old t wrote back. We didn’t end well. It’s sad she’ll write some alters but not others. We’ve only written 4 times. Maybe. Only now two responses.
But there’s no one to call but crisis lines. It’s already past midnight and I don’t want to wake anyone- even if they would answer.
I miss my people. What if I forget them?

Im sorry you are feeling lost and sad. I wonder if the reason the therapist didnt answer when the 6 yr old alter climbed the cabinets and fridge and took pics was because the therapist may not want that alter to do bad things to get attention. I mean it is kind of dangerous for adult bodies to be climbing on cabinets and onto the fridge. even when its a child alter doing it, the cabinet could have fallen, or parts of the cabinet could have broke apart, the fridge could have tipped over.... there are all kinds of things that could have happened and you all could have gotten hurt... so maybe the therapist is using what parents do with their children sometimes ...reward good behavior, pay attention to when the rules are being followed and not put attention on when a child does something not so good.

it sounds like you all have some co consciousness (know what each other is doing and when and how people outside do things with you) maybe you can ask inside that the 6 yr old not do dangerous things like this that can hurt you all.

maybe next time you see the therapist you can ask them why they are not answering all the texting and pics, and why they talk to some and not others, maybe you can talk with the therapist about making safety plans for when the 6 yr old alter wants to act out/ get attention this way...

with me and my alters when ever an alter acted out in dangerous ways my safety plan was going into the hospital for a while until things got more stable.

[Fuzzybear]

Kiya

[elladeker]

In fact, it's sad

[Kiya]

Oh sorry, Amanda, that self was unclear. She’d sent the pics of the fridge to 4 people including a t from 2 years ago. That was the t she heard from. Not current t (who has to take mandatory vacations because they are funded).
We also heard from the two friends, but not for several days.
When the little wanted to climb, our other adult alter said “we’ll, if you have to, while you’re up there clean the top and cobwebs. Here’s a rag”. Heh.
It was kinda dangerous. She brought in a swivel rolling office chair, climbed on that to the corner of the stove and then onto the fridge.
Everything creaked and groaned and my shoulder got hurt (is still hurt). Getting down was more precarious. No more cobwebs!

[Kiya]

(((( all )))) didn’t have enough data last month to check back in :/