[wrenchergirl]

I'm having a very bizarre thing going on, for me. I am always very vigilant about what I watch on TV because I'm still fairly easily triggered. My life-partner started watching this show 'Dexter'. I won't go into detail here unless others have seen it and care to talk about it. *** If anyone is curious about the show PLEASE check out what its about before watching it because the show itself is potentially extremely triggering.*** Which finally brings me to why I'm posting. I NEVER would have watched this show but I walked into the room when my partner was watching it. She always turns shows like that off as soon as I come in the room, but for some reason I told her to put it back on. Something had caught my attention. I don't know what. For some reason, I keep watching it. Every time I say I wont watch it, I do. Its like I cant stop myself from playing it (its on On-Demand). Amazingly enough it does NOT trigger me. I was wondering if anyone else that visits this list watches it. And what do they think of it, do they have any odd reactions to it. I dont understand my reactions to the show so I thought I'd ask around to... I dont know... I guess to try and figure it out.

I never heard of it. I have that problem though with Law and Order SVU. I know I shouldnt watch, but I do. I'm not sure why I do that to my self.

[BasketCaseMom]

I do not have DID but I happened to see this topic as I was scrolling down the forum index and thought I'd share my experience with "Dexter" for you.

I have Paranoid Schizophrenia, and I absolutely love this show. It does not trigger me into psychosis but it does make me think about my own situation. It's strange how much I can connect with a fictious character, but I do. I know what it is like to hide and pretend to be normal. To wear a mask so to speak. I know exactly what it is like to have this running comentary in my head as this character of Dexter does to explain what he is feeling to the viewer.

It's one of those things I simply cannot turn off, even if it does a bit bloody, I just sit and stay glued to it. I am not quite sure why.

[wrenchergirl]

WOW!! Thank you so much Munkee. I've been trying to figure out for a year now why I can't stop watching the show. Your comment has pointed out several things. Thanks. I too feel those same things you do - the wearing the mask, the running commentary in my head, and relating the main character in a small way to myself. This is a great relief to me because I was starting to wonder if there was a bad reason why I watched it and could relate to it.

[BasketCaseMom]

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WOW!! Thank you so much Munkee. I've been trying to figure out for a year now why I can't stop watching the show. Your comment has pointed out several things. Thanks. I too feel those same things you do - the wearing the mask, the running commentary in my head, and relating the main character in a small way to myself. This is a great relief to me because I was starting to wonder if there was a bad reason why I watched it and could relate to it.

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I am glad to see I am not the only one who also feels this way. I thought I was even nuttier than I already knew, when I became unable to turn away from this show.

I don't think there are bad resons we are realting to it at all. Just that we manage to see a small bit of ourselves and the things we struggle with in Dexter. He like us, has to hide in the public eye and pretend to have feelings he truly does not, just to fit in.