[phoenixgriffin]

I've lived with Bipolar Psychosis for nearly 3 years now but recently I've been experiencing dissociation. It first started when I played about with my mum's VR headset, and the day after I used it I didn't feel real. It's like I didn't recognise myself. I even had flashbacks of the game, like a visual hallucination.

Fast forward 2 months later and the dissociation happens again, but this time not due to the headset. I've since stopped using it. On top of not feeling real, I didn't feel like me. I was convinced I was Kaelen ( a character of mind in a book I'm writing, and one of the voices in my head.) Now this isn't the first time I've dissociated. When I was first diagnosed, I was admitted into a mental hospital and I lost about 3 days of memory. When I "woke up", everyone, including the nurses, was calling me Kaelen. I was also suddenly aware I was a man stuck in a woman's body, and convinced that a nurse had hidden a bomb in my pillow.

Is it possible to have psychosis and Dissociative Identity Disorder or OSSDD?

Now what's different about this time is I don't get any amnesia. But sometimes I go very still and can't move. It's like I'm not in control of my own body. Also my likes and dislikes change. I love rock music, but when Kaelen is in control he listens to Classical music like Schubert, Bach, and Shostakovich. He also hates my favourite anime, the Fate series.

What do I do? Is this going to be forever or will it go away? Do I even qualify as having Dissociative Identity Disorder or even OSDD-1b because usally I front with another alter, if they want to front. I never dissapear altogether.

Any advice would be helpful.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by phoenixgriffin

I've lived with Bipolar Psychosis for nearly 3 years now but recently I've been experiencing dissociation. It first started when I played about with my mum's VR headset, and the day after I used it I didn't feel real. It's like I didn't recognise myself. I even had flashbacks of the game, like a visual hallucination.

Fast forward 2 months later and the dissociation happens again, but this time not due to the headset. I've since stopped using it. On top of not feeling real, I didn't feel like me. I was convinced I was Kaelen ( a character of mind in a book I'm writing, and one of the voices in my head.) Now this isn't the first time I've dissociated. When I was first diagnosed, I was admitted into a mental hospital and I lost about 3 days of memory. When I "woke up", everyone, including the nurses, was calling me Kaelen. I was also suddenly aware I was a man stuck in a woman's body, and convinced that a nurse had hidden a bomb in my pillow.

Is it possible to have psychosis and Dissociative Identity Disorder or OSSDD?

Now what's different about this time is I don't get any amnesia. But sometimes I go very still and can't move. It's like I'm not in control of my own body. Also my likes and dislikes change. I love rock music, but when Kaelen is in control he listens to Classical music like Schubert, Bach, and Shostakovich. He also hates my favourite anime, the Fate series.

What do I do? Is this going to be forever or will it go away? Do I even qualify as having Dissociative Identity Disorder or even OSDD-1b because usally I front with another alter, if they want to front. I never dissapear altogether.

Any advice would be helpful.

first let me say you are in london I am in the USA so what I am about to say may be different depending upon whats what where you are...

here where I am believing to be a character from a book or movie or real live famous person is not called dissociation... here where I am this is called delusional beliefs. I get this sometimes with my bipolar with psychotic symptoms. its not fun and can be very confusing. what fixes the problem with me is having my meds changed/ adjusted.

here where I am dissociation is things like feeling numb, spaced out and disconnected. from there it moves into all kinds of dissociative disorders.

when I was not integrated (one whole person again) my alters were not me believing I was characters in a book, or made up persons from something I was writing.

they were separate personalities that took control when ever I had my dissociation symptoms because of a trigger (something that I could not handle)

my point I did have DID and I also had psychosis....but... they were not combined. you see here in the USA dissociative disorders have a special rule that says the problems can not be because of things like other mental disorders and imaginary friends (some locations call it imaginary characters instead of friends) and also a rule that reality testing remains intact (knowing whats real and what isnt, not imaginary, not made up and other names for this depending on location) which means in......me...... my psychosis was different than having dissociative disorders.

your post mentions being diagnosed with bipolar psychosis my suggestion is continue to go according to what you are diagnosed with and if you dont agree with their diagnosis, ask for another evaluation that can diagnose what this is, your treatment providers are the only ones that can tell you what these problems are in you and how to best treat it.

[Fuzzybear]

I can’t advise as I’m also in the UK.. I hope that you’re able to find useful “help”