I swear, it seems like all I got to do is think it and this body does it on its own with no effort on my behalf- or is it me thinking?

Going to the store, to work, showering, brushing teeth, cooking,...everything.

I don’t feel like I have any body control... I can barely feel the body except the fingertips like when typing. I’ve been noticing this the past day and a few times in the past.

Right now I can tell a female is present just by the way we move, sit, gesture. She’s just typing out my thoughts as I think them. She’s being silent, we just woke up dazed and I can get this out.

Last night a part took over and went and bought beer no questions asked. Just got up and did after we said we wouldn’t.

When a part assumes full control.... I get pushed away like all the way to the back of a bus. I’ve always used the thinking that it was our alcoholism talking that we learned from addiction counciling, but everyone always gave me an odd look in AA, this is much different....

Is this anyone else’s experience? I feel to be a prisoner in my own mind.

I’m only saying because it’s just so weird and wanting to know that I’m not alone in this and that someone gets it.

Thanks.

[childofchaos831]

I want to reply, but I'm not with it enough to fully form a response. But I totally get what you're saying.

The more I notice....the freakier it gets.

Here I am, a stranger in my own body.

Who am I?