[rise13eyond]

She brought up something the other day that I don't remember at all. She said I once I told her that when I was young I thought I was the only real person, everyone around me was a figment of my imagination. So when I ignored someone (which apparently I did a lot) it was because in my head they literally weren't there. Apparently I was always very odd, and since I was 5...I think she said? Since I was 5 I was being taken to child psychologists and such and the only real conclusion that anyone ever came to was that I was odd and very creative. Don't remember any of that but it's probably still true. So I kinda wonder that if because I experienced dissociation and derealism so much I questioned reality even when I wasn't dissociating. The world may never know.