[snarkydaddy]

I started therapy again earlier then I expected, and for reasons I was not prepared for, and the original reason changed dramatically from why I am there for now.

I have had 6-7 weeks of therapy while I am waiting for a plan to be developed and a new additional diagnosis... (My diagnose currently is PTSD, which I have been in treatment for off and on in an ad-hock way due to circumstances out of my control.) In the mean time I have been working with a T to get the to bottom of my Dissociation behavior... Simply put it comes down to acceptance of things I do not like, want or need in my life.

There was a time when I had a little power over things. To change what I did not like and to create other options that did not put me in a "trap" or "confined space".My how life has changed.

I find acceptance very hard to deal with because I do not like sitting with things I can not change or alter. It makes me feel very powerless and causes me to dissociate if left unchecked. It is bad enough that it causes time loss and remembering what I did, but the bad part is how it effects those I love.

I am making progress through therapy and I am having success predicting when an event might be occurring thanks to the tracking method given to me by a therapist. And I also should give credit to the medication I am on as it really does slow me down so i can stay in a rationale state. If I can stay disciplined and not give into the feelings of being trapped and accept that I am powerless it is the belief of my therapist that these symptoms with dissipate as as I deal with the core driving force.

Has anyone else had a connection between stress/acceptance and Dissociative behavior? Thank you for any contribution you may have.

[kevin_pc]

I think stress can trigger dissociation for many people. After being diagnosed with OSDD-1 I know I certainly experienced more dissociation as I had to come to terms with my diagnosis. I'm still not quite there yet to be honest, but I'm getting there.... Accepting that I have a trauma history and PTSD and OSDD has been hard for me.

[finding_my_way]

stress definitely can trigger dissociation. so can anxiety/panic attacks for some.

[L.P.]

Veda wanted to tell you yes. She is our host person now. She got lots to say about it. Its hard for me to explain. Maybe she can do that later.

Acceptance is the hardest pill to swallow sometimes. Stress, anxiety, panic trggers off DP/DR...trances...switches....you know, all the fun stuff.

It's getting through these periods that I have grown accustomed to, like self-figuring out how to ground myself or ride the wave per say.

The thing about us is we accept our condition, but we (or I) ain't too bothered about it because it's always been this way, so to just be freaking out over something that has been for 45 years? Of course if you were tuned in here a year ago you would of seen some of our younger ones freaking out on here.

It's just the way it is....relax....it'll get better if you work for it.

[kecanoe]

It was hugely stressing for me to be diagnosed with DID. It took a long time to accept it, and I think I have not fully accepted it because I still want to keep it a secret a lot of the time. And yes, stress does make the dissociation worse.

I hope you get answers soon.

[elevatedsoul]

i just hope she doesnt get mad at me

[elevatedsoul]

stress is wack, i cant handle that stuff very much

i guess im easily over stimulated, but it just confuses me because i guess of the fog

i was just wondering; you mentioned a tracking method? can you elaborate?
and also what medication you use if you could share?

thanks, stay strong

[kecanoe]

You weren't asking me, but a small dose of Abilify plus multiple antidepressants helped enough that I wasn't suicidal. I was still depressed and wished I was dead but the strong urge to carry out a plan eased up

[snarkydaddy]

Originally Posted by kecanoe

You weren't asking me, but a small dose of Abilify plus multiple antidepressants helped enough that I wasn't suicidal. I was still depressed and wished I was dead but the strong urge to carry out a plan eased up

You take care now. I went through that a few years ago.
They always ask "do you have plan" "what is your lvl of depression"

Hour by hours...days into years.
Try to treat yourself well & take a holiday from complexity once in a while if you can.

[snarkydaddy]

Originally Posted by elevatedsoul

stress is wack, i cant handle that stuff very much

i guess im easily over stimulated, but it just confuses me because i guess of the fog

i was just wondering; you mentioned a tracking method? can you elaborate?
and also what medication you use if you could share?

thanks, stay strong

I get very over stimulated by my current environment and will be moving soon. Too light, sounds, you name it. and I am still located in a trauma sight. The last 10 years I have lived under high amounts of massive stress and it has taken it's toll on me. I found out I had PTSD roughly 2.5 years.

I use a system using 10 emotionally charged events in my life. 1 being the best 10 being the worst. The rest are filled in on a graduated scale...
I then use that to check in with myself once an hour and see where I am at. If I start seeing a lot of 7' and 8' I know a disassociating event is likely. Which means I need to back down from what ever I am involved which...

I am 6mg of Clonidine a day

[snarkydaddy]

I was just thinking about the fact that since being in therapy for 8 weeks now, dis- associative & any related dysregulative behavior has been absent and reduced respectively. Do I get an 8 week chip for this? No, but I do get to remember everything now which is a plus.

I credit this to the fact that I am paying attention to it. In the past it is likely I did not take it seriously enough nor did I really see how it effected others. Effecting myself is one thing... but being a jackass to others really draws to much attention. And then well, you have to deal with it. The tools I am using are a good way to focus & I have included these simple yet effective tools as a daily habbit... tomorrow is another... I hope remember it.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by snarkydaddy

I started therapy again earlier then I expected, and for reasons I was not prepared for, and the original reason changed dramatically from why I am there for now.

I have had 6-7 weeks of therapy while I am waiting for a plan to be developed and a new additional diagnosis... (My diagnose currently is PTSD, which I have been in treatment for off and on in an ad-hock way due to circumstances out of my control.) In the mean time I have been working with a T to get the to bottom of my Dissociation behavior... Simply put it comes down to acceptance of things I do not like, want or need in my life.

There was a time when I had a little power over things. To change what I did not like and to create other options that did not put me in a "trap" or "confined space".My how life has changed.

I find acceptance very hard to deal with because I do not like sitting with things I can not change or alter. It makes me feel very powerless and causes me to dissociate if left unchecked. It is bad enough that it causes time loss and remembering what I did, but the bad part is how it effects those I love.

I am making progress through therapy and I am having success predicting when an event might be occurring thanks to the tracking method given to me by a therapist. And I also should give credit to the medication I am on as it really does slow me down so i can stay in a rationale state. If I can stay disciplined and not give into the feelings of being trapped and accept that I am powerless it is the belief of my therapist that these symptoms with dissipate as as I deal with the core driving force.

Has anyone else had a connection between stress/acceptance and Dissociative behavior? Thank you for any contribution you may have.

Wow! That’s very profound and deep! I think I have the opposite problem, I can’t let go of reality and sleep, I’m so hyper vigilant.

[leomama]

Wow you sound really healthy snarky daddy, you have a much better grip on reality then I do right now. What are you up to these days?