My son has ADHD and is now a young adult who does things continuously that triggers me and has me stressing to a heart attack. At work, I have a co-employee that is about the same and transferable of frustrations with son is manifesting at work.

I’m at wits end and ready to quit, kick ***, do nothing, or freak out. 24 hour nonstop of...this barrage of self-pity and reckless abandon....

They both pull the mental illness card like Im the sane one here and at fault. Let’s see...anxiety disorder versus bipolar DID....someone’s going to jail soon...and it’s most probably me.

Without revealing my true identity and the curse I live under....they flagrantly flaunt their short comings as their pass for their rudeness, inconsiderations, and lack of ownership of their actions which all the while is triggering my insaneness.... at least that’s what the hair ripping feels like.

Idk what to do or how to deal with this. I am not programmed to live this way.

Our Evil One has a plan.

[rise13eyond]

I don't think anyone is programmed to live that way. But I get what you feel. Honestly it sounds like you're in a very precarious situation and if worse comes to worse than you ought to go get help, because as unpleasant as that would be it still be better than jail. Multiple people with MI in a close family is it's own kind of difficulty. And I would absolutely want to kick the ever living crap out of someone like that, because it reminds me of something I've got going on that's similar and I do. Feeling like doing it is one thing and then actually doing it is another. Your Evil One you called them, probably feels as terrible as everyone else, otherwise they wouldn't feel so strongly enough to want to plan anything, and maybe taking things from a perspective of empathy for them might work better than viewing them as an antagonist. I'm mostly saying that because we have one....or well I guess two in the system who are known for being like that and trying to understand them works a lot better than trying to tell them they're bad.

Our Evil One has nasty wicked plans and ideas that we mostly seldom ever let come to fruit because for one, it’s so not like us We just explained to this person yesterday our condition as multiple personality parts to keep things simple and that we must stay calm to endure. We want to stay out of jails and hospitals and to just keep working untriggered. I’m curious to see where and how this goes being he’s not the one with the real problem and putting my condition out there....where that’s going to end up. Life is one big social experiment.

Our son, we are just paying him no mind unless we have to and that is working just fine.

I don’t think we are responding to our meds well because of missing a few doses (says the pill box) and also the lowering of some dosage amounts.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, AlwaysChanging2 It must be a very difficult situation for you. It would be for everyone, I think. I'm glad you were able to speak up with your co-employee. Hopefully he'll understand you and leave you alone. Is there any boss that you can speak up to about this? Are your bosses aware of your MI? Perhaps you could try to complain to them if the situation doesn't get better. I'm glad you're trying to ignore your son's behavior. I hope that will work out for you and that it will make you feel less stressed. Please don't give up. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you need and want. You know we won't judge you here. I promise you that. You're a wonderful person. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this. Just try to do your best. That's all you can do after all. Stay strong, AlwaysChanging2. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Try to hang on. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this