[Rive1976]

I am still struggling with what are thoughts from alters or random thoughts, obsessive thoughts, orintrusive thoughts. Anybody have any clue?

[Amyjay]

I really don't couldn't tell you what is what for you inside your own head. I know for me that while I do sometimes have random thoughts about weird stuff, I can usually tell when something is coming from one of the alters because if I respond to them we can usually engage in a give and take conversation with each other. If it's from an alter I don't have any sense of doubt about it because I know that the answers are certainly not coming from me and the conversation is quite rational. Even when what they are saying might not make sense to me after talking with them I understand why they say and do the things they do - it usually relates to past trauma or protecting the system in some way. Even when they do things I don't like or that go against my own belief system and morals, in the end their words and actions all seem to make sense given the context.
If I am having random thoughts there isn't any response to questioning or a sense of anyone being "there". My alters have a full "presence" to me. They undoubtedly exist for me, and the more we communicate the clearer and more fully present they are to me. The ones I have full awareness of are very, very much themselves and real to me.
But my experience is in no way a "standard" of what DID is like. It is simply how I experience it myself. I have no idea how others experience their own internal voices and selves.

[Betty_Banana]

Originally Posted by Rive1976

I am still struggling with what are thoughts from alters or random thoughts, obsessive thoughts, orintrusive thoughts. Anybody have any clue?

Why do you feel the need to figure it all out right now? What do you feel you will gain by it?

I understood wanting to know the difference, I was once in your shoes.If I could gi back in time I wouldn't have focused on it so much and would have concentrated on other more important things.

Eventually you will figure it all out.Its really not that important though right now,is it?

[Rive1976]

Originally Posted by Betty_Banana

Why do you feel the need to figure it all out right now? What do you feel you will gain by it?

I understood wanting to know the difference, I was once in your shoes.If I could gi back in time I wouldn't have focused on it so much and would have concentrated on other more important things.

Eventually you will figure it all out.Its really not that important though right now,is it?

I dont want to be a faker.

[Betty_Banana]

Originally Posted by Rive1976

I dont want to be a faker.

If you don't have it all figured out right away it in no way means you're faking.

You were diagnosed with DID by more than one professional,I think they would know if you're faking.

Denial is a pretty common thing with DID. I went through plenty of denial myself,thinking I was faking . I apologized many times for faking during therapy sessions but my T would assure me I wasn't. I thought he was a quack tbh.