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Default Jun 03, 2022 at 07:09 PM
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It's good to hear you're doing a little bit better, @stahrgeyzer. Maybe your FB groups are helping?

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Default Jun 04, 2022 at 06:53 PM
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Thanks. The FB groups are helping. Lots of people with similar diagnoses makes me feel less strange and lonely.
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Default Jun 07, 2022 at 08:07 PM
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Today is one of the worst days in a long time with SI but then I accidentally came across a fb group called Snoopy is Awesome that made me smile. It's filled with happy snoopy pictures and snoopy quotes.
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Today is one of the worst days in a long time with SI but then I accidentally came across a fb group called Snoopy is Awesome that made me smile. It's filled with happy snoopy pictures and snoopy quotes.
That's great @stahrgeyzer. And being a member of many groups there, there's a good chance that can happen for you again, in different ways, when you need it.

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I had an ok day today. I got along a little better with the voices much of the time. One of them did not want me to write that, like you all might know I'm talking about him. But I guess he thinks it's ok right now, so I can go ahead & post this. Take care everybody!

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I miss little Paul coming out.

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My voices don't "front(?)." One of them has told me they've tried to work the hands & body while I'm sleeping but can't do it. Their voices can go outside of me, as if I'm hearing other people in the room with me. At least one can throw his voice, & other sounds, into another room. So that's a skill he has, apparently, that the other voices don't have. He can "put" another voice behind me, in front of me, or anywhere, to be with his voice or away from his. One of the other voices says they don't know how he does that. When I first started hearing voices, they were only outside of me. I thought they were coming from someones radio, maybe next door. Later I knew they came from me. They were in the same room as me. Then later, I heard them inside my head. They claim they don't remember any of those things or any of their past behaviors like I do.

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I can't help but wonder if your voices are EPs. ANPs and EPs can be alters. Some more developed than others. ANPs usually cope with everyday life in outer world while EPs cope with trauma and often in inner world. Here's a good article on them:

Apparently Normal and Emotional Parts

The present academic model for dissociate disorders is based on the theory of structural dissociation. You might want to read these two articles

Secondary Structural Dissociation | DID-Research.org

Tertiary Structural Dissociation | DID-Research.org

and also Primary structural dissociation
Primary Structural Dissociation | DID-Research.org

See the image at the top of each page. For primary you'll see one ANP & one EP. That's usually not DID or OSDD. For secondary you'll see one ANP & multiple EPs in the image. That's known for OSDD. Just a thought that maybe in your system you're the ANP and your voices are the EPs. EPs can definitely have dissociation and not remember things. They can be very abusive & angry. They hold trauma. In tertiary there are multiple ANPs & EPs, which is known for DID.
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also it's possible there are unknown "deeper alters" which could ANPs or EPs Systems and Subsystems | DID-Research.org
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@stahrgeyzer, my cell phone won't let me access your links. But I did find a lot of information on the internet about EPs & ANPs. My voices don't seem to remember traumas. I'm the one with the memories. And most of them don't care about my feelings & memories. They do have emotions, though. One of them gets upset when others continue the cruelty for very long. Others exhibit anger. I remember two of them seeming depressed, & having social anxiety in the super stores. So I guess they could be EPs.

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I found OSDD-1b on the internet. There seems to be a newer attitude about dissociative disorders. I'm glad to see that. Maybe I can eventually open up more about my situation.

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No activity here in over a month. I haven't been doing very well lately but it's a little better now.

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Yes, I so wish this particular board was more active. I wonder why it isn't?

Anyway, I'm hoping someone here can help me out because I'm pretty desperate.

Has anyone in your system ever turned on you because s/he felt like you did something that betrayed his/her trust? Also, has your system become disorganized and chaotic because they're angry and confused about something you did?

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Dear @*Beth*, my system has been abusing me in many ways for a long time. I'm in a lot of pain & I'm like their prisoner. Once in a while we get along ok. They say they don't care about me. Sometimes one will say they love me, then say they don't care about me. They resemble the abusers from my past. I hope one day to find a good therapy for this & safe medication. I'm sorry you are suffering. I hope you can find help, too. I'm so grateful for PC/MSF! It's all I have to help me keep hanging in there. God bless you & all the people here!

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I am so grateful for your reply. I did not know this could happen. My situation also replicates my abuser's behavior toward me. I feel so confused...my people were helpers for so many years, then something happened and they suddenly became frightened, angry, and chaotic.

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I am so grateful for your reply. I did not know this could happen. My situation also replicates my abuser's behavior toward me. I feel so confused...my people were helpers for so many years, then something happened and they suddenly became frightened, angry, and chaotic.
So many possibilities! Hopefully we will understand in the near future & things will get better.

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So many possibilities! Hopefully we will understand in the near future & things will get better.

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