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Default Jan 06, 2023 at 02:29 AM
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I'm very sorry to hear your dad recently passed away!

Do I/we always feel like a new person? I've fronted a few times before for a few minutes. This is my 1st time to stay out long. I believe it's usually the same people who front but sometimes there's a new one.

The way you describe waking up and feeling your old self, and learning your name and feeling less lost reminded me of an email friend I knew. She talks about being a walk-in. I'm not saying you're a walk-in but it just reminded me of that. One of the people in this body had an experience at age 13. One day while walking down the street they woke up. Before that everything seemed like a dream. He would ask friends if that's normal, but everyone said it's odd. Then one day he learned about people who claim to be walk-ins and it seemed to make sense.

I've talked about this with psychologists. They say psychology is just scratching the surface of understanding things, especially DID. Paul usually took pain so seriously, worrying about things. We create our reality. Like your quote says, "The mind is its own place, and in itself can make a heaven of hell, a hell of heaven."
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Default Jan 06, 2023 at 10:27 AM
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Often I have felt like I was a walk-in. I learned about walk-ins years ago from late night talk radio. I fortunately have an open mind when it comes to the paranormal & metaphysics. In fact, I incorporate these things in with my spiritual beliefs & even enjoy talking to God regarding them. And I have a good friend who also has that kind of open mind, very fortunately for me, so I don't feel so totally weird all the time.

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Default Jan 08, 2023 at 10:44 PM
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Today was so strange. Very dissociated, and my voices have been much nicer, which I appreciate so very much. I feel really, really lucky at this moment. I'm so very grateful for our wonderful forums here! There is this sadness at the same time, though. I just say to myself that it's part of my mental illness, & to hang on & keep trying & believing in a better time later on & wait for that wonderful moment.

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I know I was dissociated at work earlier. I felt off all day like I was floating around in an alternate reality. I could barely put my thoughts together or function like I needed to. I removed myself several times and I tried some grounding techniques I learned, but still struggled throughout the day.
 
 
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Thank you so much, @LoneWolf001, for posting here! From my point of view, we can & do help each other.

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LoneWolf001 thanks for posting and welcome aboard. I like your wolf icon. It's very relatable.
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Default Jan 09, 2023 at 02:21 PM
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Not exactly sure who I am after waking up. Feel like me/Ryan was in for two days and after that it feels like a blend of a bunch of us but today me/Ryan is back mostly but I/we feel good although stressed out due to our living environment of constantly moving to another airbnb and crossing our fingers the home owner will be extra nice and no scary tenants but unfortunately it's common to have scary home owners and tenants and we only $80 in the bank now and resorting to $220 cash to pay for food. I can easily see how Paul is the way he is since he's appears to have been in the front the most.

And then I remind myself that pain makes us stronger so we're better prepared for the big storms so we're doing pretty good! And I finally remember another of our major goal in this life so I/we are working hard on that.

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I'm sorry, @stahrgeyzer/Ryan, about everything you have to go through sometimes. I wish I could send your fairy godmother there to change everything into the way it ought to be.

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I think its happening again . Think its bad this time. I was watching tv. now im feeling really off. Im holding ice chips trying to come back. Can barely feel them like im numb
 
 
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Default Jan 10, 2023 at 06:46 AM
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The way you describe waking up and feeling your old self, and learning your name and feeling less lost reminded me of an email friend I knew. She talks about being a walk-in.
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Often I have felt like I was a walk-in. I learned about walk-ins years ago from late night talk radio.
Guys— what are “walk-ins”? Where should I go - what kind of sites - to learn more about this/these?

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Thank you so much, @LoneWolf001, for posting here! From my point of view, we can & do help each other.
Ditto all this.

And ty all so much for being here/hear.



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I think its happening again . Think its bad this time. I was watching tv. now im feeling really off. Im holding ice chips trying to come back. Can barely feel them like im numb
Ice is a good thought. When holding it in your hands doesn’t seem to help, have you ever tried holding ice to your vagus nerve (the back of your neck)? I find it more helpful than just having ice in my hands.

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Guys— what are “walk-ins”? Where should I go - what kind of sites - to learn more about this/these?

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You can google it & mention it as a paranormal thing. It might refer to souls. The way I feel sometimes is like another person who lived in this body died & I came in & became connected to all her memories, so it seems like all those memories are mine. I suppose it's just depersonalization & derealization. But life is such a mystery, who can know anything for absolute certainty?

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Ice is a good thought. When holding it in your hands doesn’t seem to help, have you ever tried holding ice to your vagus nerve (the back of your neck)? I find it more helpful than just having ice in my hands.

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I haven't tried putting ice on the back of my neck. I will try that next time and hope it helps me too. Thank you.
 
 
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We're doing wonderful. We are so pleased to see the early design stages of a new society based on unconditional love & science that will one day sweep across the world. But I'm sorry this will be the end of the negative collective species who has a strangle hold on humanity and this planet. We look forward to the peace period on Earth.
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Default Jan 13, 2023 at 04:09 PM
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Feeling good but very switchy lately. Not sure who I am but feel like a dozen people at once. Was just watching a video of someone with rapid switching who gave a great idea that also helps with severe dissociation. Whenever things get too bad she uses smelling salts with good success. There seems to be different types ranging from smelling salt sticks that you crack open (she uses this type) to ammonia towelettes. The ammonia towelettes seem to be weaker but probably would help. The most popular in the US seem to be ammonia inhalant for athletes. I don't know how any of them smell or which one is the strongest. I read that they are safe but not really sure.
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Default Jan 16, 2023 at 11:07 AM
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We're feeling very good. We even got a loud chirp/bark/roost from I'm guessing the child Mr Friday.

Martin Luther King, Jr. birthday is January 15, 1929.
"We shall overcome because the arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice."

ps Have patience, the peace period on Earth is coming
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Even though I was diagnosed with DID among other things I'm not sure I believe it. I doubt myself all the time even though some people have seen "evidence" of DID in me. Does it matter? I mean ,matter with me?

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Default Jan 18, 2023 at 07:54 PM
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My reality is just weird. It's in the little things. In this specific airbnb that I'm in now there's a constant supply of short roughly 1 inch long strands of hair on a certain area of a work bench. No matter of how often I clean it up, the next morning there's a fresh supply of it, like a dozen strands of hair. And my car keys thing is weird. Almost every time I take my keys out of my pocket it's upside down and I can't figure out why. I have to turn my car zapper around to push the door-lock button nearly ***every time***! It's symmetrical.

And another thing that's followed me my entire adult life. Every so many years I enter a super kindness humanitarian cycle and there are certain people who will hold their hand up to block me from their vision!! It gets to the point where it usually happens 1 to 2 times every store I visit. It's like I'm blinding them. I find it rude, but they don't seem to care.


I think we live in a reality that is completely different than the picture the academic science community paints.
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