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Default Jan 03, 2022 at 05:56 PM
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Wishing everyone the best year and a peaceful life. This will most likely be the last post from this system. Thank you for all the help. Much Love, Clara & Darold & Paul & the whole system
@stahrgeyzer, if you're leaving, I will be praying that you're ok & that all of you will find some better people you can respect & feel comfortable with. And then I hope you'll come back & share that with us. Good luck with everything!

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Default Jan 04, 2022 at 11:10 AM
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I'm a florid system my alters are shaming themselves to make sure we're important to one another. Sometime there is good gossip and uplifting the spirit is usually what we get out of one another . It usually goes like shameful shameful shameful. Then I'm rewarded with history or who is out further or other thing that discovery provides that makes it enjoyable and understandable on why it is important to know who you are.
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Default Jan 04, 2022 at 01:10 PM
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Thank you very much, @buddylife, for joining us! And for explaining about your system. This thread has a membership attendance problem at times, so we really do need each other. We are not exactly alike here. My system is different than yours, but other members describe similar systems to yours. Please post here whenever you can. A big welcome to you!

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Default Jan 04, 2022 at 01:42 PM
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Honestly, I think if the dissociative disorders weren't so controversial, and certain people wouldn't try to defend it so much, then perhaps more people would be free to post things here. It's when there are responses that judge, doubt, question/interrogate, reiterate what isn't or is dissociation, etc., it makes it harder for people to share their authentic realities. Comorbidity is common among those with dissociative disorders. Comorbidity doesn't necessarily rule out a dissociative disorder; it can coexist.

When people express things here, it seems to get challenged at times. However, when people express in other sections/other forums/other threads, they don't get challenged. Why? Because there's this ongoing culture-bound war/controversy that ensues between parental rights versus children's rights, false memories versus traumatic memories, and those against supporting dissociative disorders versus those who struggle with dissociative symptoms.

I, for one, find it challenging and difficult to check in here when certain people will question or challenge your statements, your diagnosis, your expressions, your struggles ALL. THE. TIME. It would be helpful if there were specific rules for this specific section, seeing that it gets certain negative feedback at different times (not always, but sometimes).

I find it easier to share with my T privately than to share online here, to be honest.

For the other non-dissociative stuff, I tend to share those feelings elsewhere. I also sometimes share my dissociative symptoms in other forums because I'm more accepted and welcomed there; whereas similar postings here would render some responses that are rather off-putting or challenging, as opposed to supportive and accepting.

I hope this makes sense.

It would be great if this section were more inclusive of those who express similarities with dissociative symptoms, as well as the diverse kinds of symptoms that many people with a dissociative disorder diagnoses often have.

All these debates on what is or isn't dissociation based on someone's statement about something in the past, something in the present, some comorbidity, or otherwise, is just making it difficult for people to trust in the support that could be given here, as opposed to the challenges that just turn people away.

I get that some opponents will claim that dissociative disorders are "culture-bound," but those arguments have been debunked, given the amount of dissociative disorder diagnoses globally. And, because of the challenges people experience from those opponents (approximately 50% of the psychological field, and even more from the psychiatric field), people are now more and more reluctant on seeking treatment - especially minorities. It's a sadness.

So I just thought I'd mention this here, wholeheartedly, since I feel reluctant on sharing much here because of the reasons I've outlined above.
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Since yesterday I have been suspecting that I have more voices, separate someones, than I thought I had.

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Since yesterday I have been suspecting that I have more voices, separate someones, than I thought I had.
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I'm a florid system my alters are shaming themselves to make sure we're important to one another. Sometime there is good gossip and uplifting the spirit is usually what we get out of one another . It usually goes like shameful shameful shameful. Then I'm rewarded with history or who is out further or other thing that discovery provides that makes it enjoyable and understandable on why it is important to know who you are.
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Default Jan 04, 2022 at 05:12 PM
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We had a good therapy session discussing the icky feelings we get - sometimes in dreams when our alters are in the dreams experiencing icky stuff. The T helped us to see that we're not icky, even though it's hard for us to feel not icky. The helper alters inside help the littles know that it's the abusers who were the icky ones who did bad things.

We are working more together. We discussed how some alters are working more with one another and how some are alike, but also how they differ.

We feel better talking about things in bits and pieces, and our T knows how to talk with us about stuff that is icky.

We also talked about other things like the political stuff that worries us, and how there was some webinar talking about how the extremist groups in our area were threatening some people (not us, but others in our state), which then triggered us and our system because we live in this state with those groups. But then we realized that those groups are not as big, and that is also what this webinar discussed, and how there are more people against the extremists. It's scary that these conversations are taking place locally, but we decided not to watch those webinars anymore because they just keep us freaked out.

We know people are fighting the extremists, and that's all we needed to know. We don't need to know details or sign up to go to some dangerous legislature; we just needed to know that there's a group of good people trying to fight against the extremist stuff going on.

But then all that affects our system, and so then we dissociate and different parts come out. Our T knows about those different parts. Our T listens to whomever comes out. She sometimes asks who is out, and other times she guesses. Sometimes she guesses correctly, sometimes we have to tell her who is out.

We've been working together more though - just communicating inside. We thought there was an alter with an alter, but it's only just one alter instead of a double-alter. The alter was able to work things out over the course of a year with our T, which helped the alter to feel more whole and not as split off into two parts of herself. But there are many other alters. The alters are all working together more with one another and also with me, though with me they take things more slowly in their approach.

It's hard sometimes to process what the alters say or feel - or even dream.

The icky dream really caught me off guard.
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I'm a florid system my alters are shaming themselves to make sure we're important to one another. Sometime there is good gossip and uplifting the spirit is usually what we get out of one another . It usually goes like shameful shameful shameful. Then I'm rewarded with history or who is out further or other thing that discovery provides that makes it enjoyable and understandable on why it is important to know who you are.
@buddylife - we hope that you find good support here.

We struggle with shame, too.

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Since yesterday I have been suspecting that I have more voices, separate someones, than I thought I had.
@Breaking Dawn - we hope that you are okay, and that maybe the voices are there to help you in some way. We hope it isn't too scary.

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Thank you for sharing and helping us to feel safe enough to share, too.

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I just woke up from a dream. It was so complicated but interesting. Two characters from a tv program that I watch were in my dream. But I didn't realize that until I was awake thinking back on the dream. I'm feeling very sad & stressed at the moment.

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Last time I posted here, I was having dissociative DP/DR panic attacks almost every day I think (In 2020). I was put on olanzepine 10mg in the summer of 2020 after having a 5 hour panic attack at the hospital and by December of 2020, I had my last panic attack.

Throughout 2021, I had an episode of DP/DR once in February and two (Both times while in a restaurant with my family) in September and October. I took clonazepam during all of those times.

I know you're all suffering, and I'm not sure what DID is like (I just got DP/DR from my bad psychedelic trip that happened 5 years ago) so I'm just posting this here to say that olanzepine has helped me greatly - Even though I still have intrusive thoughts, I take a breath and focus on it a few times a day, then it goes away. It won't be jinxed by telling anyone because I say so.
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Last time I posted here, I was having dissociative DP/DR panic attacks almost every day I think (In 2020). I was put on olanzepine 10mg in the summer of 2020 after having a 5 hour panic attack at the hospital and by December of 2020, I had my last panic attack.

Throughout 2021, I had an episode of DP/DR once in February and two (Both times while in a restaurant with my family) in September and October. I took clonazepam during all of those times.

I know you're all suffering, and I'm not sure what DID is like (I just got DP/DR from my bad psychedelic trip that happened 5 years ago) so I'm just posting this here to say that olanzepine has helped me greatly - Even though I still have intrusive thoughts, I take a breath and focus on it a few times a day, then it goes away. It won't be jinxed by telling anyone because I say so.
Thank you, @Desoxyn, for visiting us & for your caring message & for the helpful information.

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Default Jan 15, 2022 at 02:46 AM
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I guess this thread is going kind of dormant lately. I still dissociate quite a lot.

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The voices & I have been at opposite ends & I'm trying to figure out some different strategies for myself. Basically I'm trying to be stronger so my emotions don't keep me from fulfilling my goals.

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we just recently discovered daniel tiger's neighbourhood and the instructional songs are fun!

" think about what you're gonna do, and pick the clothes that are right for you"
good bit of advice..
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we just recently discovered daniel tiger's neighbourhood and the instructional songs are fun!

" think about what you're gonna do, and pick the clothes that are right for you"
good bit of advice..
I love that show, too.

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This morning has been better & I did some work already that I've needed to do for a long time. I think I felt some encouragement from some of the voices. I think they were kind of praising me while I was in the process of accomplishing my goal. I have plans for today, mostly paperwork & going to the post office & a store. I'm crossing my fingers for myself.

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Hello Everyone! We’re new here, we’ve not yet been diagnosed but we think we have OSDD-1b. I just wanted to stop in and say hi!
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