my OSDD disorders

I remember well the day I got my OSDD diagnosis's. it was during a joint session with my therapist and psychiatrist. It was shortly after America switched over to a whole new mental health system for diagnosing and treating mental disorders. yea that dreaded but yet much awaited for new diagnostic manual and all that came with it in 2013.

That was the day that I discovered I would be having some of my mental disorders reevaluated and re-diagnosed for the labeling and symptoms of some of my mental disorders was no longer included in the new mental health system.

on the positive side that day was also an emergency session. I had been notified that one of my abusers was being released from prison. He had served his time and it was time the justice system relaxed the prison bars. I was feeling quite dissociative due to the stress and anxiety.

I was feeling numb.
everything looked so far away but strange too.
Everything around me looked larger than life.
I know reality from delusional. I know reality wise those things around me were normal size, this was just my mental perception.
I felt like I was sinking down into the floor boards. becoming one with the wood. I wasnt delusional I knew my feet were not made from wood and that in reality I was not becoming wood flooring.
like being stretched out of my body but I knew I was not really out of my body like those psychic or spiritual shows. this was not delusions of not knowing what was real and what isnt. just mental feelings.

Along with this came time perception problems where everything seemed to be in slow motion, like someone flipped the movie switch on a projector to extremely slow. oh I know time wise everything outside myself was normal, this was just my perception while in this heightened dissociated state of mind. again I was firmly planted in reality and knew what was real and what wasnt real, I was not delusional. all these problems were directly related to my being in a heightened dissociated / flight or fight state of mind due to stress and anxiety that my abuser was being released from prison after over 2 decades.

I was also having trouble with my memory while in this dissociated frame of mind, wow what happened to this morning? did I make breakfast? what did I make? you told me this already, when did she tell me about she having to work late, Did I write my phone number down on that form I filled out, did I include the check with the bill I just mailed in? why cant I seem to remember things right now?

I had felt these feelings before, they were not something that frightened me. the fear came from the fact that its been a long time since feeling these familiar feelings. I hadnt felt them since integrating from DID. and in the past before 2013 these symptoms would have and had been included in my DID symptoms.

but now things were different, all my alternate personalities were integrated, merged together with me to become one whole person again. I knew there was no becoming undone for me, I wasnt that small child undergoing the same identical traumas with no coping tools to handle adult issues that had caused me to be DID, so what was this called now in the new mental health system of diagnosing and treating way that was in place after May 2013?

The answer was a new label, many new labels.
OSDD - Macropsia
OSDD- Tachipsychia
OSDD - Amnesia

My treatment providers showed me the diagnostic forms they were filling out.

What is patients diagnosis - OSDD -Macropsia
if patients diagnosis is an Other Specified disorder please specify which Other specified disorder the patient is diagnosed with - Patient has the Other Specified Dissociative Disorder known as Macropsia.
Has patient been specified (told) of their disorder, if not explain? Patient has been specified (told) of their disorder and provided with pertinent information related to their disorder.

This is a quick summary of my being diagnosed with OSDD disorders.

my disorders are not co-morbid (as in having OSDD and a separate disorder called macropsia or having OSDD and a separate disorder called tachipsychia or having OSDD and a separate diagnosis of amnesia)

Macropsia, Tachipsychia and Amnesia are the OSDD disorder labels that are listed in a treatment providers eyes only listing of Other Specified Dissociative Disorders.

I think of OSDD like a book. you have the title of the book (OSDD) then inside the book you have an index (macropsia, tachipsychia, amnesia ect... there are now over 20 of them on the treatment providers only listing of other specified disorders) of whats contained in that titled book.

I hope I have helped any new members to understand what my dissociative disorders are. these symptoms are typical of people who have dissociative disorders, the difference is that they are no longer lopped into the now discontinued label of nos disorders and DID and other pre 2013 dissociative disorder names. now the symptoms have their own labels depending upon many individual factors of each persons presentation. for me these problems added up to having... here in america we do not get diagnosed with OSDD and a number. the system we have here in America is actual diagnostic names for those numbers other countries sometimes use for numbers.

here in america I dont have OSDD1a, b c... I have OSDD- macropsia, OSDD-Tachipsycha, OSDD- Amnesia.

OSDD (category name) - Macropsia (dissociative disorder listed in that Other Specified category name)

OSDD (Category name) - Tachipsychia (dissociative disorder listed in that Other Specified category name)

OSDD (category name) - Amnesia (dissociative disorder listed in that Other Specified category name)

for those interested another common OSDD disorder is trance state and its wrote on files like this here in america OSDD - Trance State. other countries may write it as OSDD with a number depending on what other dissociative symptoms they are having.

thanks for "listening" and hope this has helped to clarify why some people here like me have actual disorder names with their OSDD and others who come from other countries have numbers for their OSDD disorder names.