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Magnate
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Location: literally hell
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There's been more activity around the airbnb room here of things I didn't do. I feel like it's Darold. He's the only one who's consistently been interested in being host or helping out as host but as I think about that it scares me for his sake because I wouldn't wish being host to my worst enemy.
I was going to set up the IR night camera recording at night to see what's going on but I won't because they're probably just bored with inner world and want to peek out at night to see what things are like here. So I won't take that away from them. In fact I thought about putting things out at night for them. Maybe even downloading some games on the phone or laptop. Darold might be interested in coins. He might have been the one who was going through a bag of coins and found a cool one dollar coin that was left on the dresser table. He's a very curious person. When he fronted in therapy months ago while I was in the back he asked T if he has a soul and what happens to him when the body dies. It was kinda sad. Sometimes I feel like alters are souls who attached to the body during it's childhood to help the host. Sometimes it seems like certain alters know things we don't know, like maybe things about the spirit world. Maybe they're in-between worlds, the physical and the spirit world. Anyway if Darold ever becomes host I'll try my best to be there for him whenever he needs help or a break. ~ Paul / host |
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Magnate
Member Since Feb 2018
Location: literally hell
Posts: 2,357
6 5,660 hugs
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#2
Such an old post. In a way I'm very relieved that my dear friend, Paul, is mostly resting in inner world in what he says is the black void. He feels safe and is healing. It appears these days there's an army of alters fronting cocon. Although it seems I'm the one who's usually most focused or closest in the front, if that makes sense. Sometimes Paul, who's often little Paul (I like call him Paulie these days) will be somewhat in the front cocon. I hear that sometimes he's fully in front.
For anyone who's new to hosting, I've found that being detached helps. And a lot of naps. It's so stressful and tiring. Especially with Paul and Sam changing so much lately trying to end the body. If you become attached and let the emotions swell up then you're going to get drained and burnt out. Your system needs you! You're their rock. |
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Location: literally hell
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