[cool09]

That's what I've learned. I dissociated in my teens and 20's. I was detached and didn't feel anything around me. I felt unreal and everything around me seemed unreal. I'm more attached these days.

[OafFish]

That sounds right

[Breaking Dawn]

Yes, derealization, to soften the truth of what our reality actually is. My experience with these feelings goes back to early childhood. Then later it seems my brain chose that method for other realities to protect me. Presently it's not enough. Too many bad things. Depression & anxiety are stronger, & dissociation episodes have no memory to tell me what went on during those periods of time The voices use physical harm, & they won't let me sleep enough to allow me to regain my strengths.

[Fuzzybear]

derealization - ''to soften the ''truth'' of what our ''reality'' really is''. Hmm. I don't want to write about my early childhood here (or the rest of it either).

I spoke about something about it once in a ''support'' group in real life and some A hole slammed me with total invalidation. There was NOTHING trivial about what happened and I had only said a couple of sentences. Yeah some freakin ''support'' group

Has anyone read Pete Walker's book? I dipped into it the other day and it mentioned how some survivors who have experienced mostly ''only'' neglect - or that is mostly what they recall...berate themselves...compare themselves to others (never a smart thing to do) as do some of the professionals.

Fight, flight, freeze, fawn. It's scary when a professional slips into the fight style. I didn't care to encounter his snake.