Not sure where I belong

I have schizoaffective disorder and social anxiety, I also dissociate, moreso when anxious, I don't lose a lot of time,. Maybe parts of a conversation. I am startled when it ends and it is like waking into a dream, but it is real. I know who and where I am.

from 2003 through 2005 I had sensations where I felt people were inside moving me physically and talking through me, I had thoughts that I had alternate personalities, but people told me that was part of schizoaffective and not real.

I finally went to a therapist i found through ISSTD. He had me fill out some forms and did a structured interview, He told me i don't have DID, but DDNOS (at the time) with fragments. I could not afford to keep seeing him but i gave the results to my therapist, She was open to trying to communicate with any other parts but nothing really came of it,

My insurance changed last year and I was able to see the therapist who ran the tests. I run out of things to say so he spaced the appointments further and further apart and then told me to just contact him if I need an appointment, I did not like that. I finally got up the courage to tell him I wanted to see him on a regular basis and then he moved me back to "as needed". I am seeing a new therapist on Mon. I really don't know much about her background, but she does some Internal Family Systems which I think may be helpful.

Anyways, the sensations stopped years ago and if there are alters they are really quiet,

It has been difficult. I have had psychotic symptoms and experienced things that can't possibly be real but it was my reality at the time.

Nice to meet you all.