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Arrow Jun 16, 2023 at 09:58 PM
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I'm just an alter who doesn't have access to our important memories. Those who front in this body have mostly been drawn to MK-Ultra programming. There's a deep feeling a lot of seriously weird stuff happened to us in early childhood. Being in small cages. My dad taking me to what seems like a court trying to free me from something. I grew up in southern California near a base that a lot of people say MK-Ultra programming took place, China Lake, CA.

I wanted to know if anyone knows how to recall these important memories. I feel like we can't begin to heal until we can consciously process the experience. An alter in our system named HAL tells us he has all of those memories and that he is the keeper of the library of our early childhood memories. Years ago he told someone in the front he would give us one memory. We immediately had a memory flashback of being in a dark room with a certain person looking down at us. Within seconds of this flashback memory the body had what our psychiatrist believes is most likely an NES (non-epileptic seizure) where the body had a waking seizure for about 15 to 20 minutes. The next day the fronting alter began thinking about the memory flashback and again had the same NES. So we know about seizures and it does not matter to us. We really need to have our memories back.

Can anyone help?

What's done is done. Though it's sad that it seems real a part of our government was so desperate to achieve breakthroughs that it had to shatter the minds of little children. There are a lot of people who have memories of MK-Ultra. Maybe if enough people can put the pieces together we can put an end to such atrocities that plague humanity.
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Default Jun 18, 2023 at 12:35 PM
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MK-Ultra took place in Montreal, as well, during the 40s-60s.

I hope you find healing from this.

Could you ask your pdoc about EFT-tapping, EMDR and also Hypnosis to see whether these modes of therapy might be helpful to you?
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Default Jul 17, 2023 at 10:52 PM
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accessing memories usually needs assistance of someone else for alters who doing keep memories. EMDR, brainspotting, hypnosis etc., can assist in uncovering some of the deepest, darkest things.

i hope the best for you.

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My whole life I've always had the weirdest fear for alice in wonderland but yet it brings some kind of weird comfort. They say alice in wonderland is well known for mk-ukltra programming.
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I hope you find healing

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