i'm absolutely in over my head

I've been diagnosed with DID for a little over a year, and I was quite oblivious as to what was going on in my head prior to that. There's 43 of us all together (that I know of). I don't really know what my point is, I suppose I'm just feeling overwhelmed. Some of us are acting all dangerous. Lyra refuses to talk. Carol's body image problems are back. My body image problems are back. Allia's been giving out contact info to random people on the net. There's three parts: a dragon, robin, and lion, that are well, claiming to be nonhuman. Is that even possible? I've been awake all night. I'm suddenly afraid to leave the house. I don't know. I just feel like I'm crumbling apart. My parents don't expect that much from me, but I feel like I can't even reach their low standards. I'm completely isolated. I have one friend, but I can't drive and no one can take me to see her and she was in an accident, so she can't come see me. And I'm terrified of phones so I can't call her. My face feels like it's made of mud. And I'm absolutely convinced something terrible is going to happen to me. Sorry for venting like this

(((((((((iknowpi))))))))))) I'm sorry you are struggling so much right now. Hang in there. Do something nice for you today in your house, if you can. Sometimes we just need to take time to hide under the covers.

((((((((iknowpi))))))))

i know things are hard for you right now but it sounds like you have very understanding parents? do you have a good T also?

you also have us now to give you help and support. we all have days when we need to vent but we be here for each other...and we're here for you too

Thank you, guys! And yes, my T is very good. But I'm always afraid that she'll stop seeing me since I have trouble adhering to safety agreements...

my heart goes out to you... there are days... like what you are describing... and they are so hard......

having a T is so important..... can you... try to adhere to the safety standards? When I first started working with a T 20 some years ago.. I had trouble with that too...have you tried working with your T... to establish one alter.. that promises.. to call... in the event of a problem... sort of like a "monitor"... that works for some DIDer's..

like you i have some non-human parts... one is a fox, one is an owl. it is ok.
can your friend have someone drive her to you? maybe your parents can call her and ask?