[Kendyll]

I KNOW he put on the Nirvana CD.
So why was Ella Fitzgerald in the player?
Why doesn't our friend remember listening to Nirvana?

I KNOW he spilled his Pepsi and I wiped it up.
So what happened to the paper towels?
The trash was full - why is it empty?

I don't know if this is dissociation or not.
I DO know that he was really upset Saturday night (angry) and I got upset 'cause it hurts when he's angry. But at the end of it, I'm the one who appears to have lost time. I'm the one who seems to remember the "wrong" reality. Did I really splinter that badly?

So now I'm paranoid. Scared he's messing with my head.

It's been going really good, guys! He hasn't been switching too much, and most of the time it's been manageable for them all. Only a couple of angry blowups (until Saturday). Great Christmas for us both. So what the heck? What's wrong with ME?

BTW - Our T thinks I have DDNOS. Along with whatever else I've been diagnosed before.

[wanttoheal]

((((((((((Kendyll)))))))))))) I'm glad you have an understanding T and I'm glad things are going better with BF. Sounds like Saturday night was pretty stressful. It would be understandable that the stress could cause you to dissociate to some degree. Stick with T. Sounds like T can help.