[miserycriz]

I am getting worried..more flashbacks more body memories scared, confused and now things are just overwhelming!! I just keep going into states of panic and they will come from no where!! I mean i am blind sided with them? I am so upset inside..Dont know what to do? Feel alone and lost..I dont have words to even express what's happening right now..The memories aren't clear and I am scared!!
mc

[multipixie9]

DEAR MC,

I'M SORRY IT IS SO OVERWHELMING RIGHT NOW. IMAGINE ME COMING AND JUST SITTING WITH YOU. I WOULD REMIND YOU THAT WE ARE HERE TO SUPPORT YOU. YOU WILL NEED SOME THINGS OFF OF HERE LIKE READING SOME OF THE WRITINGS ON "GROUNDING" TECHNIQUES AND FOCUSING ON SOMETHING ELSE TO GIVE YOUR MIND A BREAK ON THE FLOOD OF INFORMATION.

"TALK TO YOUR HEAD"!!! TALK TO THE PANICKY PARTS AND REASSURE THEM AND HELP THEM REMEMBER THIS IS NOT FOREVER. YOU DID ALREADY SURVIVE THIS AND CAN DO IT AGAIN.

CHECK AND SEE IF YOU ARE DOING SOMETHING THAT IS TRIGGERING YOU TO FEEL SO BAD. BE KIND TO YOURSELF. NURTURE YOURSSELF.

I CARE MC, I CARE. GENTLE HUGS IF YOU WANT THEM AND KNOW WE ARE CONCERENED FOR YOU !!!!!

LESLIE AND HER PIXIES ALL CARE

[Jewels]

Dear MC,

i can just imagine the panic an the scared feelins u have...we oftn have em too, but when Yahna gets em, we try ta help her thru...we tell her she is brave an is strong an even tho the memories r real, shes already survived em, an so they rnt happenin ta her right now...i know it dont sound like much, but somehow that comforts her an she is able ta look at things a lil more objectively...it dont always work, but it works good nuf...an still at othr times she freaks out an we cant get her calmed down...so we pull her inside an help her by holdin her an lettin her know we r there for her if she needs us...a lotta times she gets triggered over the least lil things an yet others when she should be concerned she seems ta not want ta even look at it...our hope for u is that u can comfort those who r in such panic...begin to slow breathe at the very onset, an use affirmations ta help u from becomin too bogged down in stuff...try not ta let the emotions rule ur life atm...just simply let it go an let in some good things like; you are good; you are not experiencing the trauma again; you already survived the abuse an don't hafta let it run u anymore...i hope this helps...abbi of jewels

[Sannah]

MC

[miserycriz]

Leslie and her Pixes,
thank you for the hugs trying to ground trying to focus..feel so just sick and not even tired just lost in a world that i should know but ??? I know all of you are at this point one time or another or maybe even now?...T is gone for right now so I can't talk to her and the husband is trying but then the switching back and forth for protection purposes NOT to let anyone know the freaking stupid ugly secrets is just uggg too much for anyone to deal with even though he's trying he's trying... Thank you!!!

abbi of the jewels,
awwee thank you for taking the time to write..you did give me allot to think about and you like leslie validated my feelings of what's going on..it's hard to accept at this moment right now...too understand..to comprehend..everytime i feel things rising up even though "I" may feel safe someone else may not the panic is so scary..even just now see typing it someone even though it's the bodies reaction is just panicking...This is our life huh? it's going to be hell until this crap comes out...but those people made us all of em tole us never tell never tell..so yeah it's hard..so much guilt feeling like we are the bad people..we haven't even begun to tell and look at how much pain is here...sigh..okay but i will stop getting tummy upset..thank you so much though thank you...hugz to you alll back Sannah you too biggest hugz
MC

[Sannah]

Originally Posted by miserycriz

it's going to be hell until this crap comes out...but those people made us all of em tole us never tell never tell..so yeah it's hard..so much guilt feeling like we are the bad people..we haven't even begun to tell and look at how much pain is here...sigh..okay but i will stop getting tummy upset..thank you so much though thank

[multipixie9]

dear mc,

you are hangin in there. it will get better and you will learn that it is ok and even very important for you to break those old rules and tell the bad secrets - At The Right Time! your alts had very real reasons for their fears and panic and pain, but they don't always know that time has passed and the danger is no longer there. i do
believe you. you will be able to learn how to use the good parts of our special coping skills and how to learn better life skills for any thoughts, feelings or behaviors that tend to hurt us or sabotage our current life.

i learned the slow way that i needed to be Gentle with myself and learn what the truth is and then with good help my life improves.
we do not talk about our spiritual lives openly, but that is a part of what has enabled me to heal and move on.

hang in there, i am glad you are here. keep coming here.

leslie and her pixies