[Poohbear13]

I have been switching all weekend. One of my Ts tell me that there "is an indication of another alter surfacing" and they are not aware of the safe place I have created internally.

I don't know if I can handle another part, A new part!!!!!!

I have been counting when I become aware of the switching and it has been bringing me back but I wonder how long this will last.

I just have to make it until I see my Ts on Tuesday, right? but how do I do that?

(((Pooh))))
I'm not sure how much internal communication you have. Do you have enough to tell someone inside to meet and greet this newly found insider and take her/him to the safe place to meet the others?

It is scary to meet new insiders. they have so much new "stuff" about them.

When we have had new insiders, it has been helpful for us that our Prism can meet and direct them to a safe place or a room that is their own and she sits with them until they are ready to present themselves.

We created this way of doing things because it was so chaotic otherwise.
I am not always aware of it going on inside.

I am co concious with nearly all my insiders now--There has been at times an awareness of what is going on on the outside but never able to do anything about it or the memory of the event is somehow forgotten very soon after it happens.

You might try to find someone who is willing and capable of doing this.
A wise one or a spiritual one---Prism is our internal Angel/Spiritual Center
/Internal Healer
wi

[multipixie9]

Poobear,

Can you keep reading the quote you put as signature. It sounds to me just like what you are going through. Just experience what is and not question it. Stay in the now with this new alter and try not to fight it.

Then on Tuesday you can talk to your T about it all.

Any other good supports you have or comforting things to do - major on supporting yourself and being as good to yourself as you can. If nothing else it will minimize the pain and discomfort of the time...I Hope!

[turquoisesea]

(((((((((((((((((Poohbear)))))))))))))))))))))))

I don't have much to add, but what to do till the meeting: take it moment by moment. No big plans. Small things, one at a time.

[DiffDrummer]

For me...rapid switching is often related to increased external stress...something to consider...take care of yourselves

[Poohbear13]

Thanks for the advise. I am trying to deal with a little at a time. My inner communication is not very good and I need to work on it. I have this problem with ignoring them when I don't want anything to do with them. Today has been extremely difficult and the switching appears to be getting worse.

I don't remember much from yesterday. I don't even remember writing the previous post or emailing my Ts. But I am just trying to make it through the day. I have to go to work this afternoon and I am not looking forward to it. I hope I can make it through it okay.

[turquoisesea]

(((((((((((Poohbear))))))))))))))))

*sits here with you, and wishing you the best*

[Poohbear13]

Went and saw my Ts yesterday. They discovered that there are at least 2 new littles. With their help I created a safe place for them to be so that they weren't out and switching. I must say that the switching has slowed down a lot. it has not completely stopped but it is not nearly as bad as it was.

i am a little freaked about having more parts, though. I thought I only had 4 left and i am finding out there are more. i just need to be comforting and just go with the flow, right?

i have been so tired from all the switching and nightmares that I stayed in bed this morning and tried to sleep. i had a few more nightmares but they were about something completely different (losing my dog). i just didn't want to get out of bed today but i managed to get out and write this.

i just need to work on loving myself more and not be so critical, right? things are going to happen the way they were ment to be, right? i just need to stay strong and willing to work on the problems, right?

i am trying to comfort myself but i just don't feel it today............

[turquoisesea]

i just need to work on loving myself more and not be so critical, right? things are going to happen the way they were ment to be, right? i just need to stay strong and willing to work on the problems, right?

i am trying to comfort myself but i just don't feel it today............

right.

you deserve to love yourself. this is a scary thing, and it is ok to be afraid. You can be strong, and part of strength is accepting that things are scary but that we try to work through them. keep your head up, and if you need to hide in the sand, I'll hide with you for a bit

I"m proud of you for getting out of bed today.
I just wanted to say - I dunno what you feel like exactly but if you're upset with yourself because you're not getting up and not functional... I don't think you need to be hard on yourself. We are very hard on ourselves when we are like this (which seems to be all the time lately) but we've also been realizing something. Emotionally we are very hurt right now, you were very hurt too to have this all happening. If you were physically hurt, hit by a car and hurtingvery bad would you expect to be ok perfect through the recovery? I wouldn't! I know I would need rest and have to work through the recovery according to what doctor says. No one would think that's wrong. Why is it any different with this?

As far as the other parts, I'm sorry that there are more to meet and to deal with. But do remember they all are in some way you. And most importantly knowing about them is more helpful than unhelpful. You know they are there now. you are closer to finding all your parts, you are closer to picking your pieces up and working them out, and I"m so proud of you for that.

sending many hugs, if that's ok. Please don't be too hard on yourself, you deserve to love you not the other way around

[Poohbear13]

turquoisesea~

thank you so much for the understanding and encouragement. I really needed to hear that. you are very thoughtful and i do accept your hugs.

i am trying to be gentle with myself and love myself but when you can't get out of bed it makes it more difficult doing that. today it is raining here and i just want to stay in bed and listen to the rain but again, i made it out of bed. i even did some chores.

thanks again for your support and understanding.

[turquoisesea]

*hugs poohbear*

I understand.... gloomy weather never helps either x.x
I've definitely had those days
I'm so proud of you for getting out of bed. and chores too YAY! I know how hard that can be

keep at it , sending many hugs and thinking of you
~turquoisesea