[Kiya]

it's 10.
i dunno where is safe for me right now. and i don't want to be judhed or kiya to be judged. something came up and we swapped at her school job and... i don't wanna say the wrong thing and get ppl upset at me or her.

[Luce]

Hi there. Sounds like whatever happened was pretty hard for you. Have you got anyone inside you can talk to about this? Maybe there's someone in there who can listen to you and help you figure out a way to deal with things in a different way next time? Or maybe someone outside - like a friend on here or your T? I'd be happy to lend a kind and non-judgemental ear if you see me round and feel safe enough for that.

Us humans are good at making mistakes and saying or doing the wrong thing sometimes, huh. Luckily we're good at being able to learn new things, too.

All is not lost, hun. Hope you get to find that safe place and curl up there to comfort you.

[Kiya]

sanks luce. the system won't let me tell all grrr but i wrote some int he journal that kiya started for us all. not allowed to write all there etiehr cuz it's not safe. but kiya answered it and said t and them are ok with what happened and that i am not bad. i dunno why i can't say all but whatever. i guess i'm not hated. so that is good.

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((Kiya)))))))))))))) I'm so sorry you are struggling. That's great that you could write in journal. I'm glad you realize you are not hated. We're really glad you're here. I hope you will find peace and calmness.

[iamtwilight]

10

glad you wrote at least some and let kiya and the t know. i know that feeling, when you want to say something but feel you shouldn't. sorry that you're having a difficult time.

but i'm glad you wrote and got reassured


twilite

[Kiya]

sanks twilight and wanttoheal
i guess - i dunno if i can talk. i ben thinking bout it a lot. and it is all clear until it gets with kiya's thoughts and the host. the host says no way! but kiya knows better what happened.
i didn do nuttin wrong. i was scared! i looked up and saw a kid my age and i felt a lot of scarry stuff that i never felt before and that stuff is bad and i thought he was a different kid from a different placse but kiya said that's a different time too and it wasn't the same kid.
so i was really super confused and didn't know who or where i was or who the kid was or why we were in school if it's true that kiya said we're adults. i'm not an adult! and that boy that i knew knew far too much about being an adult - that's why i was scarred. i saw him and i panicked. but kiya said no- we're the teacher. @_@ wanted to run and hide - too confusing. but kiya kept fighting for to be in charge. everythinh was ok for her. the dr lady said that was all normal and good that kiya stayed there. i still duno, don't understand. =(

[Elysium]

(((((10))))) Safe hugs, if you want them!!

I am glad that you are able to come forward and talk. It sounds like what you experienced in the school was very scary for you. I'm sorry you had to experience that.

Trust in Kiya, even when you're scared. She loves you and will do everything in her power to keep you safe and protected. It can be difficult to be a little in a big's body...especially if you don't realize that the body is a grown up yet. But you are part of something special and I am sure Kiya will help you to learn about it if you ask her.

You are safe here in the forum. Please take care!!

[Kiya]

Elysium, thanks...
we are trying to work as a system. sometimes we even remember. today was better in that reguard, but lesser in letting who be in front - the one who remembers naught what we can eat was there and poisoned the body with an allergic food. the pain in the body is great. thank you for your post. us