this is vicki
yesterday our host person (NOT the wi you guys know) got triggered real bad. she don't handle any feelings so now she's gone AWOL. hiding someplace inside. so has naomi cuz she does all the feeling stuff for us and she got slammed by triggers and feelings that are really too big for her. so she's gone hiding in her hole.
that leaves me---cool vicki. 14.

we're looking for our person. she's not done this for a real long time. guess i'm just letting you all know that i'm the one posting at least today.

i can handle it ok, but it's scary. what if D don't come back? naomi's safe where she is. i think.

i'm just pissed off at the person who did this to us.


vicki

[Hunny]

VICKI!!!



Me

Hi Vicki!

D will come back so try not to worry. You've been in this position before and handled it like any good fairy named Juniper Icedancer would.

[turquoisesea]

hey there!

I'm sure she'll come back
sorry you have to hold everything together in the meantime, but I am glad to meet you at least

sending you some hugs if that's ok? And if hugs not ok just thiking of you

[Elysium]

Hi Vicki!

Glad you found your way to the forum.

It sounds as if things got pretty scary for WI and Naomi and they just need a little break right now till things blow over for them.

I think you're doing a good job for them and obviously they trust you to hold down the fort. I know that isn't really fair, being 14 and all and it probably feels a bit overwhelming, but we're all here for you.

Just hang in there and if you get scared or stressed, come talk to us...oh yeah and don't forget to take good deep breaths...this can be helpful during the really stressful times.

Nice to hear from you....talk with you later.

i'm just so mad at what happened. naomi posted about the triggers and friend and stuff.
i get mad you know and it ain't fair to me or them.
thanx for posting to me. i'm coooool and tough but, well....
thing i don't know is how long i gotta do this. i know i done it b'for
and i can, but don't know--i'm just rambling i guess.
like, i know naomi is crying really alot inside and host person is shut down. i don't do hugs but i sure could use one. like i want to know it's really ok. feel stupid i guess acting like a baby.

Originally Posted by Orange_Blossom

Hi Vicki!

D will come back so try not to worry. You've been in this position before and handled it like any good fairy named Juniper Icedancer would.

miss you thanx for bein around

[turquoisesea]

Originally Posted by white_iris

i'm just so mad at what happened. naomi posted about the triggers and friend and stuff.
i get mad you know and it ain't fair to me or them.
thanx for posting to me. i'm coooool and tough but, well....
thing i don't know is how long i gotta do this. i know i done it b'for
and i can, but don't know--i'm just rambling i guess.
like, i know naomi is crying really alot inside and host person is shut down. i don't do hugs but i sure could use one. like i want to know it's really ok. feel stupid i guess acting like a baby.

I'm sorry you're upset that we know some things. not sure if it makes you feel better, but remember that this is an anonymous place. She's trying to work through her feelings by expressing them. It helps me alot to talk here, too. Even though lots of what I say I'd never share with friends. I come here because it is a safe place to voice what is troubling me, people are kind and understanding, and also party because it won't hurt the people I may need to talk about. It's ok to get mad about it though =D

you can have as many hugs as you want no need to hug, just recieve . it's ok.
You're not acting like a baby at all, btw. You're very strong

[Fuzzybear]

Vicki!

Originally Posted by white_iris

i'm just so mad at what happened. naomi posted about the triggers and friend and stuff.
i get mad you know and it ain't fair to me or them.
thanx for posting to me. i'm coooool and tough but, well....
thing i don't know is how long i gotta do this. i know i done it b'for
and i can, but don't know--i'm just rambling i guess.
like, i know naomi is crying really alot inside and host person is shut down. i don't do hugs but i sure could use one. like i want to know it's really ok. feel stupid i guess acting like a baby.

like man i should re read my stuff....i'm mad at what happened with host person and friend. naomi posted about it. i'm the one who gets mad. ain't fair what happened to naomi or host person. crap i'm sorry it sounded like something else.

Originally Posted by turquoisesea

I'm sorry you're upset that we know some things. not sure if it makes you feel better, but remember that this is an anonymous place. She's trying to work through her feelings by expressing them. It helps me alot to talk here, too. Even though lots of what I say I'd never share with friends. I come here because it is a safe place to voice what is troubling me, people are kind and understanding, and also party because it won't hurt the people I may need to talk about. It's ok to get mad about it though =D

you can have as many hugs as you want no need to hug, just recieve . it's ok.
You're not acting like a baby at all, btw. You're very strong

oh man---gave the wrong idea--i'm suck a jerk!!!!!!!! it ain't about you guys knowing anything. naomi posted about the stuff that happened.

[turquoisesea]

no no worries!

I think I get it now sorries and *hugs*

[Elysium]

No one here thinks you're a jerk! I think we all understood what you meant. It's all cool. I(we) can understand how/why you would be angry.

All of us are angry for what we had to live through and some of us are much angrier than others.

Not that it matters, but we did 8 mos of DBT (Dialectical Behavior Therapy) and we learned that anger is usually a secondary emotion, meaning it rides in on the coat tails of hurt, fear, loss, disgust. First you feel the pain or the fear and then anger steps in to be upfront to help cope with the uncomfortable emotions. It's kind of a natural thing that everyone experiences.

Hang in there...Your doing great!!

I can understand not doing hugs to. I like 'em, but not all the time so how about a high-five Or, if it makes you feel better...give yourself a hug and just know that it comes from us all!!

[Zorah]

Hey Vicki
You still doing ok there ?

The others will be back, don't worry. You are strong, & smart. Sometimes us teens gotta hold the fort while the bigs are unhappy.

from your buddy Raven.

[pegasus]

All of you are welcome!

Hugs