[Elysium]

So...I had my appt with the new T today...

It was a casual meeting...her office is nice and comfortable with a couch and a nice chaneal (I didn't spell that right) blanket and pillows.

She's nice and smart. She's been working in mental health/trauma for the last 28 years and she's been focusing on clients with complex PTSD and DID for the last 10 years. She only has a part time private practice...has 3 patients now, including me. She is a full time Clinical Coordinator for a diversion program for Physicians during the week. She sees private clients on weekends.

She's very understanding and patient, yet she asks some difficult, yet appropriate, questions about my issues. We discussed transitioning from my current T to her, and how I feel like a failure because my T can't/won't treat me with the DID. Like I did something wrong and how I'm trying to protect my T from my pain. She helped me work with that a bit so I could discuss it with my current T at our next session.

I feel relieved. She told me to take as long as I need to transition from my current T and that she has no time line or expectations. She even said that if I wanted to keep my current T on back-up, or even see her on occasion that she would be more than happy to work with current T too.

Wow!! I think I lucked out with her...So far, so good!! Amber's not really sold on her yet and is still keeping her wall up. She doesn't want to let it down. She's still pissed, just not rebelling like she did last night. She says that no one is better than old/current T.

I feel exhausted now though!! It's amazing how much energy therapy takes. I feel like I just want to curl up in bed and sleep for the next couple days....

[Monty_girl]

WOW I am so happy it went well.

Kind of like my T a little. My T has another job and just has a handful of private practice patients on fridays. I think it's a good thing. T is really focused since there is just a few patients. Can give you the time you need. And only seeing ppl with PTSD and DID the T understands it a lot more. This sounds like a great thing. So happy for you.

[Jewels]

is very late here...almost 1 am...an just got done readin ambers rant...an can totally understand that...we have LEAH who is like that...still wont talk ta the T...but am glad that the first meetin went well with the new T...hope that things will settle down an u will feel better as the weeks progress...glad that u made a connection...at least a startin one...with the new T...

abbi

sooooooo glad things worked out with your new T. Transition is always scary and it seems like new T understands that. using both T's might even be an option for a bit if your ins. covers it. i sometimes wish we had 2 Ts

[pegasus]

So happy for you that you have now found someone experienced enough to help you. Good stuff!

[Miri]

Soooo glad that it went well. Amber's holding back is not at all surprising - loyalty is pretty important, since we didn't have much of that, did we? It sounds like it will be okay, reassuring that you can still see the T you want to keep. No wonder you are exhausted! Rest, recover, find peace.

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.............finding the expert and thanking God is the easy part..........

.............now the work begins..................

.............whole different language.........listen......hear yourself speak.....

.............persistance......dedication......building trust........consisistancy....

.............every week.........remembering that the most important thing is me showing up for therapy........the most important time is going....especially when I DONT WANT TOOOO.....OR DONT FEEL LIKE IT........thats when it is so difficult and tough........but thats the time when I need to go the most............

............................ST.................good for you!!!!!!!!!!!

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[Poohbear13]

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I am glad to hear your 1st first went well. Just remember the work begins now. Amber should come around eventually, don't push her. Let her take her time. Keep your head up.

Pooh

[Fuzzybear]