[Piraeus]

I found out today that my ex is engaged. It upset me a lot. I had some hope really deep down, that we could possibly work it out. big shock to me. I still love her too.It's been four years since the divorce, and I'm still hanging on by a thread. I know I can't have her back. I'm just having a hard time dealing with it. I'm sure it will pass, but when. Not soon enough. I have been really depressed. It hurts.

I am 43, have paranoid schizophrenia, and live with mom and dad. Who would want somebody like me. I seriously doubt anyone would. I'm lonely and scared of my future. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to feel.
I guess that's the beginning of the healing process. Oh well. What now? Maybe I will just keel over and die. I wish.

[Leed]

Oh Piraeus, you don't want to "keel over and die." Do you have a therapist? Do you see one regularly? I certainly hope so. I hope you tell him how you feel because you should!

But it's been 4 yrs. since the divorce and she's GOING to move on my friend. So it's natural that she would find someone else after that length of time.

It's time to move on Piraeus, and I KNOW it's difficult to do. When you're hurt like that it does take time to heal.

But if you're not seeing a therapist, please make an appointment with one. And talk openly with him and tell him exactly how you feel. It will help with the healing. And I'm sure there are other issues that will come up too. I wish you the very best. Please take care of yourself and God bless. Hugs, Lee