[UntetheredSoul]

I am going through a quite hard time right now and I would love to help someone out there that feels the same way. Today was the date set for move in to the new apartment with my "boyfriend", turns out he didn't consider us to be together. Yesterday he basically broke things off over TEXT. The day before move in. He still expected me to move in, pay the rent, and live with him! I turned it down and left. He called me over 20 times consistently, over and over again. I finally answered and asked if he realized how crazy he was being. He answered like everything was perfect and started laughing at everything I had to stay. I told him that he is heartless and he replied with a thanks. He didn't understand how he screwed me over, it's as if he didn't use his source of logic at all(not that he had much) After the things he told me I was very concerned for him. I told him that I'm positive that he is a sociopath. He replied simply by saying "that's not the first time I've heard that." ending with a laugh. I went on to explain how hurt I was, and he told me he just didn't care about me anymore. I reminded of all the things he told me and he said "words are just words, I've told 6 women that I love them but they are just words." and explained that we just don't click because of the little things about me, like how I actually care about animals and people, and that I think differently, because I love philosphy etc. long story short: after listening to all of this I really started beating myself over it. Thinking of all of the possible things I did wrong and what made me not good enough to be in a long term relationship with him...after crying and spiraling into a deep depression(I have major depressive order already) but this. This just made everything so much worse. After my dear ones all reassured me that it had nothing to do with me, it was all on him. I couldn't help but allow my self esteem issues take over me. I have felt worthless and not capable of love for years. But they last couple of days have been severe. Just because of one heartless guy that crossed my path and I happened to very much care for him.....I am trying so hard to be positive right now..but what I want to tell all of you out there going through something similar: Basing your self worth off of how some *** of a human being is not healthy. It is not you. You are loveable and you deserve someone that APPRECIATES you. Someone that means what they say to you, because with love, words are so much more than words. And touch is so much more than touch. Do not lose your essence over someone that is not even close to deserving you. Even if you feel all alone, or you really care about them, . Remember that if you have a bad feeling about someone, you are probably right. I ignored my intuition and in return I only burned myself. So ignite the flame of love in YOURSELF AND LOVE YOURSELF DEEPLY. Once that is achieved no asshole will ever let you question your self worth again. I am worth so much more than what he thinks, and you are so much more than what that person giving you heartache right now thinks. Much love.

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[healingme4me]

Sorry to read you've been through this. Thanks for the inspiring words of wisdom.

[continuosly blue]

Originally Posted by UntetheredSoul

I am going through a quite hard time right now and I would love to help someone out there that feels the same way. Today was the date set for move in to the new apartment with my "boyfriend", turns out he didn't consider us to be together. Yesterday he basically broke things off over TEXT. The day before move in. He still expected me to move in, pay the rent, and live with him! I turned it down and left. He called me over 20 times consistently, over and over again. I finally answered and asked if he realized how crazy he was being. He answered like everything was perfect and started laughing at everything I had to stay. I told him that he is heartless and he replied with a thanks. He didn't understand how he screwed me over, it's as if he didn't use his source of logic at all(not that he had much) After the things he told me I was very concerned for him. I told him that I'm positive that he is a sociopath. He replied simply by saying "that's not the first time I've heard that." ending with a laugh. I went on to explain how hurt I was, and he told me he just didn't care about me anymore. I reminded of all the things he told me and he said "words are just words, I've told 6 women that I love them but they are just words." and explained that we just don't click because of the little things about me, like how I actually care about animals and people, and that I think differently, because I love philosphy etc. long story short: after listening to all of this I really started beating myself over it. Thinking of all of the possible things I did wrong and what made me not good enough to be in a long term relationship with him...after crying and spiraling into a deep depression(I have major depressive order already) but this. This just made everything so much worse. After my dear ones all reassured me that it had nothing to do with me, it was all on him. I couldn't help but allow my self esteem issues take over me. I have felt worthless and not capable of love for years. But they last couple of days have been severe. Just because of one heartless guy that crossed my path and I happened to very much care for him.....I am trying so hard to be positive right now..but what I want to tell all of you out there going through something similar: Basing your self worth off of how some *** of a human being is not healthy. It is not you. You are loveable and you deserve someone that APPRECIATES you. Someone that means what they say to you, because with love, words are so much more than words. And touch is so much more than touch. Do not lose your essence over someone that is not even close to deserving you. Even if you feel all alone, or you really care about them, . Remember that if you have a bad feeling about someone, you are probably right. I ignored my intuition and in return I only burned myself. So ignite the flame of love in YOURSELF AND LOVE YOURSELF DEEPLY. Once that is achieved no asshole will ever let you question your self worth again. I am worth so much more than what he thinks, and you are so much more than what that person giving you heartache right now thinks. Much love.

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You couldn't have said it any better. At least you didn't make the BIG mistake and go any further with that idiot. Let me say from expierience that there are people out there who will just try and make YOU seem like the sick one so that they don't have to ever look at themselves. They don't care how much your hurting and will just hang you out to dry. Because of my own lack of self esteem etc.. I let someone use and abuse me for MANY years. And your right , trust your instincts !

[Running-on-Rainbows]

Thank you very much for this.

[LadyShadow]

Thank you for loving yourself. Thank you for knowing you are worth more. Thank you for being a strong woman. Thank you for seeing the light. Thank you for being you. Thank you for giving all the rest of us hope.

Thank you for you words of wisdom most

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Such an awesome positive message - but I hope you are taking your own advice to heart as well. I know I have issues with that at times - say things I know need to be done in my situation either as a general all-encompassing statement or while I help someone in a similar situation to me - n a lot of times it acts in a dual therapeutic way, both for the recipient/s and to give me the strength to do what I already know I must do. The truth of the matter is simple - you are a good person with or without him and if he didn't see that then he is not the one for you - but that does not make you less of a person nor does it mean you don't deserve happiness *safe hugs* be well ok?