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we have been together since 2008, got married and become a stay at home mom in 2009.
I’ve been dealing with depression since 2009, after i had our first child. i didnt want to admit that i was “”broken”” so never got the help i needed.
even though he pushed me too, i felt very uncomfortable with it,he wanted me to get help.

the depression caused me to lash out at him, and hurt him emotionally, his response was to lash back emotionally. we’ve been doing this for several years. it thought the majority of it was just being in a horrible apartment…with financial and work stress… we moved here in nov 2015, he got a new job april this year…I’ve been less depressed, less angry, less outbursts, happier, even lost weight without changing my diet or levels of activity all that much.
their last thursday…he dropped the bomb. he wants a divorce and is already talking to a new woman. she’s also got three kids. her likes and interests and hopes and dreams… ARE SO MUCH LIKE MINE! she’s almost me, in a different body, just minus the depression. she even calls him a ‘big brown bear’ like i do!

I asked him if he would consider marriage counseling, now that we have a bay sitter and he won’t. he says we’ve spent too long hurting each other, that ‘neither of us’ could come back from that…

I’m so lost, i don’t know where i will go or what i will do from here

[Skeezyks]

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