I Think I Learned Too Late:

The poem i wrote this morning about our night together.

In the darkened twilight,
I see her shape beneath the sheets,
Her exquisite form so perfect,
That words are hardly enough to describe,

Her heartbeat, like the siren's song, calls out to me,
Her scent like roses after a rain,
She rose to press her lips gently to mine,
And i breathed in the breath she just exhaled,
With the tip of her tonuge, she traced a molten circle upon my lips,
And just as auddenly, she ay back down across my chest.
As i lay in marvel at her beauty, likewise did i marvel at her spirit.
She was strength and grace, beauty and chaste, heaven and hell.
The sounds of the forest beyond the window ebbed and flowed in a glorious symphony,
The perfection of her upper arm caught and held my gaze,
The heat of her body against my chest seemed it would, at any moment, ignite into flames,
And yet, it was such a beautiful silence, watching silken hairs dance in the draft of the ceiling fan.
It was, as if, time itself, in its infinite finality, stood still to likewise admire her beauty.
And at that moment, feeling our hearts beat in splendid synchronicity, was the only thing that mattered........

I'm having a good day today.

How are you, @Open Eyes?

How are you, @Tart Cherry Jam?

Oh fighting my own battles. Just want peace too many toxic battles with very toxic individuals.

Oh, Wow, I'm so sorry.

May all your hopes and dreams come true!!!!!!

I came to check on you JTL and greatly enjoyed reading your poem.

That is a very good start. Congratulations!

Thank you!

I hope it reached you!

Don't be a stranger!

If you or @Open Eyes are ever down here in SoCal, dinner is on me. PM for contact info.

@Tart Cherry Jam:

You need to change your name to @sweet Cherry Jam

That is sweet of you, but I do not particularly like sweet cherries.

The best part is that now (as of the last two weeks) I drink tart cherry juice to help me sleep longer and deeper. There are several studies supporting such use. And I love tart cherry juice! To drink it as a medicine is heavens!

Well, im in my studio first night tonight. Its lonely. I feel like im in a prison cell. I've got my teddy bear. I'm hurting.

You can think more creative. Make it cozier. It’s not a prison, you can come and go as you please. ❤️

I did an incredible job of cleaning it, like a forensic cleaning. It smells amazing.

That’s great! Having a clean and organized environment even if small is a positive and can fill a need to have a sense of control of one’s own environment.

My concern for you is that you put you self worth in the hands of people who do not deserve to have that kind of control. You must learn to not throw your pearls at the feet of swine.

There are people out there that genuinely don’t care how honest and good you are, they are evil and only care about what benefits them.

I'm still trying to figure out how to avoid that.

Many children grow up believing if they are honest and good and have good looks will be valued. They grow up with Batman and Superman and Hero cowboys and cops as role models. Hollywood picks men that have a certain look that’s attractive and these actors also have to maintain a certain persona in society to maintain their Hollywood brand.

This is not reality, instead it’s fantasy.

I try to be good just Because its the right thing to do.

Helped my wife move some things yesterday. She has been telling me about her recent move back to going vegan (which we both did in 2017 and i loved it) and how she recently has begun rediscovering Christ and shifting away from the tarot and the mysterious stuff.

She has been so kind to me lately, probably the past 4 days, that she is literally like a different person. That's been a very welcome thing. I do hope and pray this continues.