[splitz]

So....I keep coming here thinking I should post something then backing away at high speed. Technically I 'know' the answers and I have no idea what I'm hoping to achieve by posting.
I put on a shed load of weight between june and sept last year - thanks to being admitted to ICU with asthma and being put on mega doses of steroids . I managed to get myself off the steroids and then slipped into a deep depression, hating myself and my body (more than usual!). I managed to lose about 3st in two months and ended up in a psych ward for two weeks after ODing.
Since then my eating has been all over the place, not eating for days or eating small amounts and then purging etc. My weight (which is in the 'normal' BMI range) has stayed the same and I hate it.
The logical part of me knows that these behaviours are not normal and I should do something about it yet the illogical part wants the 'something' to be eating as little as possible and losing weight.
Sorry for the inane ramble
*hits send before she deletes it all*

[Dani87]

I do the exact same thing with posting... I'm so scared of beeing ridiculed that I can't press send.... even with replying to posts as well. Just thoght I'd let you know that I know the feeling haha.