[Lostforevermore]

I'm new to eating disorders...so far I've only really been posting under depression...but I think I should be here...

I've really stopped taking care of myself in the last year. I sometimes go days without really eating and even if I do get forced to eat by my mom I only eat a little. Most days I only eat once a day and lie and tell others that I ate more than I did. I don't really eat healthy either...

I've kinda had a cold the last couple of days and so my mom has been making me eat like three times a day and I hate it. So sometimes I make myself sick by eating too much or drinking too much and make myself throw up.

I don't know really why I make myself do this. It's like I don't want to eat. I only eat when I'm really really hungry...and sometimes I eat knowing that it's too much and I will be sick afterward.

I don't know what to do...I'm beginning down a road I don't know

[Lisa Michelle]

I think you need to get help for this NOW before it gets out of control. It doesn't take too long to escalate into something serious.
I'm really sorry to hear things are a struggle. Please get help if you aren't getting any already.
And also welcome to the ED forum, it's not as busy as the depression forum but people are still kind here (well some people post in both forums).

[Lostforevermore]

Originally Posted by Lisa Michelle

I think you need to get help for this NOW before it gets out of control. It doesn't take too long to escalate into something serious.

I know I should tell someone...this was my first attempt...

I sometimes make small attempts to tell my T but I never tell her the whole truth...I always say sometime like "yea I don't eat much"

But I notice that I'm getting worse...it's only really been recently that I've started to make myself throw up...

I feel kinda like I'm spiraling out of control...

[Lisa Michelle]

I know it's soo difficult, but try to talk to your T about it. It took me years to finally 'admit' I had anorexia and I obviously didn't start getting help for it until I told people about it. Now I think, if only I had said something all those years ago (8 years ago) then I might not still be in this situation now. All those wasted years, you know?

Well done for talking about it on here though. If you've not talked about it before then I know how much it takes.. it's really hard to start opening up, so you've done great.

If you mention it to your T you might find they're not that shocked because you've already made hints to it when you say "I don't eat much". It's really important you get help because it doesn't go away on its own, it only gets worse. And you deserve to be well!