[irish_angel]

First, Good Morning to all those who read this, Second Im so lost and confused that it is driving me mental. I dont have the energy that I use to have, hell typing this is making me tired so it seems.
The anxiety and panic is becoming mind numbing and crazy and last night for the first time in my life I knew what it felt like to have that inner feeling of disgust and wanted to throw up after eating my supper, not a ugh I feel gross thing that I usually have all the time, it was a need to do it a deep desire from somewhere else other than my mind, I however spoke out in fear and my hubby help me thru it by talking and laughing with me, tho it was always in the back of my mind. then I went and took a cold shower and it seemed to work I fell asleep after taking a Serquol and now its morning.

Im not doing good the last week or so, Im not suicidal so thats not a worry, its this down blah feeling that Im worthless and just wasting everybodys time and energy.

Thanks for listening, I had so much more I wanted to say but for some reason this post tired me right out.

its this down blah feeling that Im worthless and just wasting everybodys time and energy.

Irish,

I'm sorry to hear you feel this way.

It is a horrible place to be. I've been there too.

Just know that others care and are here to listen.

Petunia

[Gemstone]

((((irish)))))))

I'm sorry things are so rough right now.

Try to be good to yourself.