[tryingtobeme]

Since I have finally come to turns with admitting completly that I have an eating disorder, I am finding it very hard to grasp this disorder. I don't know what to do about it. i say I am going to eat and like it and feel good over it, then I don't. I don't even eat most of the time, yet I am still a balloon. I could really use some help if anyone is willing to PM me, talk about this stuff, maybe help give me some good advice.

[(JD)]

Change is very difficult. This disorder adds to the difficulty because it so strongly believes lies about yourself.

Continue to tell yourself what you read to be the truth, and what those who know you tell you that is good about you. Also, keep with the positive mantras, and counter the negative thoughts as quickly as you can so they don't add to the walls built within against you.

For many it's easier to say things for the future, rather than as if it's right now (even though the latter is a stronger anchor for the brain to build good upon.) So instead of saying, "I'm going to eat and like it." (as in "right now") try telling yourself, "Pretty soon I will be eating and enjoying it." or "In the near future I will find that I don't hate eating" or "I becoming more and more agreeable to eating good foods." See? You can do it, you can heal.

[2009Dutch]

Hello tryingtobeme,

I agree with TJ. You're trying to get a grasp, but that is the very hard part. Actually, the first thing you (and me) have to do is eat, knowing you don't like it, don't feel good about it...but you have to. And after a while things will become more normal, and maybe you'll even like it. Right now it's okay to eat and well, don't feel comfortable with it. First comes your head, common sense, the feeling will follow.
Wishing you the best!