[roma]

This is really getting to me. A while back I was restricting my food intake a lot so much that I couldn't concentrate and people said I looked "painfully thin." Then I started going through a binge starve cycle. The binges were usually at night and in the end I thought I might as well eat properly all day at least then I can concentrate on my studies which are really important to me. Now I can't stop eating, I'm technically a "healthy weight" but gaining quickly, right now it doesn't bother me too much but sometimes I feel obese and disgusting, especially after a binge. Weight has never mattered to me too much but it feels like it's just taking over my life and all I think about is food. It's like I have to punish myself by restricting my diet or overeating until I feel horrible. I can't just eat normally. It's not me who cares so much about weight and eating, I know that sounds ridiculous, but I've never cared, but something else has taken over. I don't want to start restricting just in case the vicious cycle sets in again or I can't study as well, my exams are more important than weight loss really. But I can't seem to just eat like a normal person!

[flawlessimperfectionsmft]

I know exactly how you feel roma and I know I won't be much help but it's always good to know you are not alone . What you could do is maybe make a plan for eating. Like they do in fitness magazines. Have something written out for breakfast, lunch and dinner and your snacks of course and go from there and try to stick to that plan. Therefor you can look at your calorie intake too and it be a healthy way to do it. That's about as much advice as I can give. I'm not very much help because I struggle with it also.

[roma]

thanks you, I'm trying all sorts of things at the moment that aren't working. I'm exercising a lot to minimise the damage, and i've figured out that it doesn't matter whether I eat properly all day or not, I'll still end up binging. Now I have binge and restricting days, because eating often doesn't make a difference - i don't binge because i'm physically hungry. the only problem is that if I carry on like this I'm going to be ashamed to go back to college due to the weight gain. I've had panic attacks because I know I've put on weight and people can see and are judging me because of it. the worst thing is that I'm still slimmer than I was this time last year but I'm just so scared of being judged and I can't seem to diet or lose weight any more. Every time I try and think: I can, I can, it doesn't make a difference.

[silver_queen]

Yeah. I too have gone from starving myself ('anorexic weight') to 'overweight' BMI in just a year ... not fun. I don't think I can eat normally any more. It's either restriction with exercise or overeating and what difference do a few more extrra calories make. I 'know' what healthy eating is and what I should do to practise it, and I also know about healthy weight loss. But I no longer seem to be able to do healthy eating. I see my eating habits like a seesaw - from one extreme to the other. I am certain that at some point I will go from overeating to starving again. The question is when ...

My dress size has increased by 6 sizes so people must have noticed my increase in weight. I don't like it but I have to live with it. If people comment on it about you, tell them to keep their noses out of it.

[ADHDpineapple]

I feel the same way lately - I was overweight and didn't care before. Now I lost weight and I'm much much thinner. Now it's all anybody will notice. I'm still considered a healthy weight, however.

I have an issue with binging at night when I'm on my sleeping medication though. ): But that way I know I'm 'tricking myself' into eating more.

Maybe an exercise regime would help you maintain a more positive body image along with giving some regularly into your life - very much along the lines of what 'flawless' mentioned with eating plans! And maybe eat some more food that give some positive vibes! I'm in college too - so exams are important to eat well for. I like wraps with peanut butter and banana and almonds in it - throw in some honey if you want some more sugar! It feels healthy and almonds help you study (no joke! look it up!) and banana helps with making you feel full and potassium! And peanut butter is full of protein and gives you energy! Don't worry about the calories in peanut butter because you'll be full enough PLUS all of the vitamins are worth the calories and it helps you study.

PM me if you need any ideas for eating or some support with motivation. Good luck and CONCENTRATE ON EXAMS!

[2009Dutch]

Originally Posted by roma

thanks you, I'm trying all sorts of things at the moment that aren't working. I'm exercising a lot to minimise the damage, and i've figured out that it doesn't matter whether I eat properly all day or not, I'll still end up binging. Now I have binge and restricting days, because eating often doesn't make a difference - i don't binge because i'm physically hungry. the only problem is that if I carry on like this I'm going to be ashamed to go back to college due to the weight gain. I've had panic attacks because I know I've put on weight and people can see and are judging me because of it. the worst thing is that I'm still slimmer than I was this time last year but I'm just so scared of being judged and I can't seem to diet or lose weight any more. Every time I try and think: I can, I can, it doesn't make a difference.

Hi Roma,
An eating disorder is much more than food and exercise tips, but I guess you know that.
I was wondering; do you always have the binges at the same time, like in the evening, being alone? Maybe it works for you to plan not only your foodintake, but a day with goals, and write down some things you can do when you think you wanna binge. That could be; going out of the situation, calling someone, come to PC, take a shower, I don't know what works for you?
Just to consider....

[venusss]

The only thing I dare to advice here is to eat foods which make you feel full aren't caloric.

Like vegetable salads (remember to add just a little oil in the dressing so the vitamins can be processed), dark bread and high-fibre foods. Cut down on processed foods and on spices (you don't have to avoid them all together... but foods that are spicy increase appetite). But you need protein as well... if your diet is not balanced your body will be craving bad foods more.

If you feel urge to snack or are bored eater... buy nuts and eat them instead of less healthy foods.