Even on this forum I have debated too many times about posting and decided not. But here I am now. I definitely have big issues with food, even though I can see how they are linked with my main problems of BP and anxiety..I have never been diagnosed with an eating disorder but watching something on the TV the other day made me think I may eventually have to talk to someone about it...I'm over-controlling regarding portions and nutrients, weighing things etc, but at the same time I can go on for days like a 'normal' person - like any other 'little' obsession I have, it's not as debilitating as in OCD..However, I do worry, as this food business takes up a lot of energy, it's always there in my head, the worry about what to eat, how much, when, the clothes that get too tight, then they get too loose, even though since the medication for BP they've been on the tight side...And then because I'm impatient with discomfort, there have been times I've made myself sick after a big meal that I can't digest because of stress, and which I ate also because of stress and under the pretence I need the extra energy. I feel like a smoker who is on the edge of either falling into start smoking 2 packets of cigarettes a day (that is succumbing to the obsession), or never taste a cigarette ever again (that is realising I don't really have a problem just unfortunate reactions to things that haven't turned into a habit). And I worry about falling on the wrong side. Absolutely no one in the world knows about this. Which makes me worry even more as apparently that's the case with everyone who has an eating disorder when they started developing it!!