[moonbeam2]

the reason i asked that question is because i really dont know! when i get up the first thing i do is reach for a mountain dew & ciggs i drink a 24oz of dew within the first hr im up & i smoke oh 5 ciggs ,i weigh about 110lbs average 5ft 5inches i guess somewere around there ,i never was concerned abouy my weight it never was a issue with me it was more hard putting it on & keeping it on they say i have a high matablism i dont know before i got sick with bp at 35yrs i was always the one to say lets go eat & i would i never pigged out but i ate i guess what im trying to say is i at a averge diet i didnt pay attention to vitamens or any of that like calesterol none & really i still dont when i had to start taking seriquil & zanex & calopin i thought ok im gonna gain some weight , i was somewhat happy cause i would like to sport alittle junk in the trunk mine i have no trunk ,flat haha ,i was working last september & my leggs swelled up it actually happened when i was at a amusement park, stupid me thought i was bit by a bug cause at the time it was just 1 legg i dont know why except the fact that i had no health ins (whole diff story)& i really didnt have the money to see a doc i know health is more important than money well the next month comes & the other leggs swell it was pain full i had to take a leave from work looking back now i think what was i thinking if it was a bug bite that could have been very dangerious i dont know so i ended up going to the emergency room cause they got pretty big & they really didnt know what it was so they gave me pain meds &sent me on my way & told me to follow up with my pc so i did he is really good i mean really good i gotta pay $200 for i visit he is a specilist well he figured out what was wrong he told me my potassum was very low & gave me a script for high dose of potassum & he told me i gotta start eating better my problem is i never get hungry i dont crave anything i eat simple foods i dont like trying new foods im not good with veggies or fish or fruit if im not hungrey how do i remember to eat i guess i can eat when my family doese but ya know how that goese if someone eles cooks it you eat better well i do i basically live off mountain dew & ciggs both r additive caffeen & nicoteen maybe thats whats curveing my appitite but iv been doing that sence i was young even my mom had a hard time with me eating at a young age i could go like for days on next to eating nothing actually i can go longer im just trying not to feel to bad its embarrising i guess like i said im not worried about gaining it just seems to be a waste of time i wish i could explain it better but i cant dont know what to say about it then night comes & around 11pm i get sick & sorry vomit sometimes its projectile it just comes flying out from no were after im done getting sick oh & its like acid i guess from the md i eat icecream & then i go to bed i said i was getting better because the kids r home 4 summer vacation so when i see them eat thats when i eat sometimes it comes up & sometimes it stay down im really trying hard to fix this issue but it dont look like i can about a week ago i was saying my teeth were hurting probably from the acid they r rottening & my throt & neck were hurting i was thinking i had cancer in the throught(not shure how to spell that)cause it hurt bad then today i wake up & my legg is swallon again i guess i gotta get some help i have no money to spare & i have no insurenceim at my wits end & dont know what to do always seems to be a challenge with me im starting to feel defeeted again health is going down the tubes & i cant keep up mentally physiclly emotionally i need a million $ to get a complete exam im just saying that i didnt get a estament haha i just gotta ask why me why all of us what did we do for this to happen its just not fair!

[moonbeam2]

oh and another thing my eyesight is all blurry i gotta were glasses when this happens that ties into the low potassom as well ,
moonbeam2 !