[Brokenwings73]

I just dint know what to do. I don't like playing the victim role I'm any part of my life I give when I have nothing to give im outgoing but got taken advantage of intimately haven't eaten since (11) days but detectives cane yo my house after they talked to the people who did this to me and I was to believe I asked for it. Now I want to sink deeper in my hole and I can't eat any less than I'm eating I'm just not disappearing fast enough to not bring something like this on again. Tonight is going to be ESP bad bc I'm not a big drinker and am fixin to get loaded to numb the pain. I'm going to hate myself tomorrow bc of all the calories but I feel like I'm on the edge of freakout. I want to go out in the rain and scream but I don't let my emotions out like that. Uggggggggh!!!!!!!