[peace.love.starving]

I was on the road to recovery and I just jumped off. This is way to hard D:

[eskielover]

The longer you keep working on it the easier that road becomes....you learn to settle in to what you feel comfortable with......& the weight that is healthy/comfortable. It doesn't mean that there won't be a few times that hit now & then, but refocusing control onto healthy rather than "loose weight" can be just as satisfying when you know you are at a healthy weight that really does look good to everyone.

I know when pain hits me in my life.....like loosing my friend to cancer last week.......that sick feeling in your stomach does nothing for the desire to eat.....& it hits for quite a few days.......but the ability to be able to recover & go on even though I lost a bit during that time.....my whole focus in on being healthy & enjoying my life & the friends I am surrounded by......& enjoying the free feeling of riding horses without the fear of passing out & falling.

I have found that living alone....there are times when I just don't feel like cooking & I don't feel like eating & there are times when I actually will loose a day somewhere during the week when I have nothing that is keeping me aware......I dance around loosing a little & gaining a little & loosing a little again......but always staying within a healthy range no matter what direction I go in & eating the healthy food makes me feel so much better. Have found that it feels so much better to not have that gnawing pain in my stomach that comes from not eating.

It's interesting the path the recovery road ends up taking when we are willing to stick with it......hope you can get back on the road & start to enjoy the scenery along the path.