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You know the one, where your body is weight restored, and mostly healthy (not to say that my ED hasn't left some permanent damage), yet your mind has yet to get on board...
I feel like things are only getting worse and worse in my head all the time now, and it's just a matter of time before I relapse again... HARD. I can't though. I can't do that to my family again... we still haven't paid off my treatment from Nov-Dec. of last year! Any advice on accepting my body and helping my mind to catch up with me? Thanks, (Julie) |
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I can relate. I don't know if this is helpful, but it's what I try to tell myself when I can: Even when I had the body I thought I wanted (bones) I never got to enjoy it. I never appreciated it, was never satisfied, it was never enough. So I felt horrible all the time, and there was no upside. Maybe now I don't really like my body, but I didn't like it before either, and at least now I get to feel better.
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Really, what helped me was accepting what I didn't like. No matter how much weight you lose, you are always going to hate that part of your body. No matter if you are extremely over weight or extremely underweight, when you have this issue, it doesn't go away with your weight because it's mental and not physical. I've been in recovery for almost 4 years now and it's so much easier now. But do I still hate certain aspects of myself? Certainly. I've been with my fiance for 2.5 years and I still hide myself from him when I'm in a bathing suit. Constant images and ideas go through my head, it's not fair to him because he's so comfortable with me, but I've been working on that part.
But relapsing? That wont happen to me again. I had some serious health issues from it that nearly killed me (I was literally seconds from death) because of it, I wont risk that again. Just keep reminding yourself, no matter what your weight, your problems wont go away until you help what's going on mentally. Just try to remember, it's not your appearance, it's your mind set.
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